every living cell in my body is rejecting chemistry... nothing is going into my brain and i am 12 hours away from my mid term test. i am so SO screwed.

No shit.

My Living with Maths lecturer spent 30mins teaching the class how to tell the time..... which to me is totally embarrassing (esp if there were foreign students in that class) and farking retarded... why did i spend 5600 bucks a year to let UNIVERSITY lecturers teach me how to tell time? this is like.... farking retarded. Like it brings the word "retarded" to a whole new level.... like a level outta this world..... needless to say, i felt that i've wasted my time and i left halfway thru.... so SO retarded

on a totally unrelated note.... i hope this sem passes by.... quickly. pronto, if possible..... its like sophomore slump...... i dun understand half the things i study.... and i have to dance....3 out of 5 days in school (which will only increase as performance day draws nearer).... and there are so many tv shows on... ta ma de. Its like the cosmic forces are playing a big joke on me. Like "oh, let's try and experiment. let's make cheong chye SUPER busy, give him tonnes of stuff to do and see when's his breaking point. this is gonna be SUPER FUN!" kinda joke. Which in my opinion, is just plain spastic, and not funny at all.

The Maker Makes

by Rufus Wainwright from Brokeback Mountain soundtrack

One more chain I break

To get me closer to you

One more chain does the maker make

To keep me from bustin' through

One more notch I scratch

To keep me thinkin' of you

One more notch does the maker make

Upon my face so blue

Get along, little doggies

Get along, little doggies

One more smile I fake

And try my best to be glad

One more smile does the maker make

Because he knows I'm sad

Oh Lord, how I know

Oh Lord, how I see

That only can the maker makes

A happy man of me

Get along little doggies

Get along little doggies

Get along...

ok, i finally caught Brokeback Mountain on the big screen last night with a fren of mine. And unless you have been living under a rock for the past couple of months, you would have noticed the Brokeback Phenomena thats typhoon-ing its way through every part of the world. From fashion houses like Prada and Dolce & Gabbana adopting cowboy inspired pieces in their summer collection to the countless (seriously, countless) spoofs of the movie, seen at youtube.com. there is certainly no way of evading this wave of cowboy attack.

And if you don't already know, this movie IS a fine masterpiece, sweeping major awards like The Golden Lion at the Venice film fest, and more recently at the Golden Globes and the BAFTAs and also leading the upcoming Oscars wth 8 noms. Without sounding too amateurish, i shall attempt to give my 2 cents about this movie.

The premise of this story is pretty simple. While working together one summer of 63 at Brokeback Mountain, 2 cowboys, Ennis Del Mar and Jack Twist forms a strong friendship that develops into a sexual bond that none of them ever imagined. Over the next 20 years, they try to lead seperate lives, but find themselves returning to the majestic mountain to rekindle their love each year. Alas, the tale of Romeo-loves-Romeo turns to a bitter end as something tragic happens. Through many ups and downs, the only thing constant in their lives is their forbidden love.

The casting of the 4 main leads couldn't have been better, each giving the performances of their lives. From Heath Ledger's protrayal of the gruff and seemingly-incapable-of-human-emotions Ennis, to the wide-eyed romantic Jack, played by Jake Gyllenhaal. From Princess Diaries' Anne Hathaway, shedding her clothes and exposing some lovely boobies (hehe), and Michelle Williams doing the same, all in the name of art.

Dubbed the "gay cowboy movie", it is a tricky business to get the pacing and tone of the movie right. Over doing it will draw laughs from the mainstream audience while under doing it will, well, anger the gay crowd. But the end result is simply sublime and tasteful. To quote an 8-days article, ""I ain't queer", Ennis says early on, to which Jack replies, "Me neither". Ang Lee doesn't force the gay issue. His is a universal love story of desire and denial and lives half lived, a romance monumental yet intimately told with delicacy, lyricism and sorrow."

This film explores the possiblity of the idea that if the outside world didn't exist and it's only you and there is no one to judge you, would you still love the person you love today, and making the same decisions as you would have. And if you think you may cringe watching the sex scenes, i have to say that they are seriously nothing compared to say... heterosexual stuff like... i dunno. you get the drift.

So keep and open mind and do catch it if you have the time, cost it's worth every single cent in my opinion, cos if you see a cliche, you can always find something more complex at the bottom of it.

I BRUISE EASILY by Natasha Bedingfield

My skin is like a map, of where my heart has been
And I can't hide the marks, but it's not a negative thing
So I let down my guard, drop my defences, down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I found your finger prints on a glass of wine
Do you know your leaving them all over this heart of mine too
If I never take this leap of faith I'll never know
So I'm learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you

So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

ok, so once in a while you chance upon a haunting track sang by an unknown singer, and right away, you are captivated by the voice, the way he sings and basically, fall in love with him/her (the music, not the person).

And for me, right now, the person is Rufus Wainwright. And the song in question is The Maker Makes, from the Brokeback Mountain soundtrack. OMG i dun think i will ever get sick of hearing that song (but i am afraid my neighbours will).

So me being me, having nothing much to do (at least that's what i tell myself), i google-d him and realised that he isnt exactly very "unknown". in fact he has quite a number of albums under his belt and sang for a number of movie soundtracks as well, including Moulin Rouge and Shrek. And i was so stupid, i didnt even notice i already had one of his songs in my playlist (the one from Moulin Rouge). Hmm, he looks kinda wierd looking.... fugly even, as what my friend lynn wud have said (i like the word fugly... it's like the new black).

ok, and he's piano trained since he was like, a baby.... and was touring with his family since the age of 14... so yeah he's kinda cool.... and it doesnt hurt that he an an incredible voice!

And also, he's openly gay....... wassup with gay people and the music industry, you ask? i have no idea.... somehow all the good singers are gay..... the lead singer from Queen is gay. The guy from Greenday, something armstrong, is supposedly gay, i think. Mark Feehily from Westlife, the only one that can sing in my opinion, came out of the closet a few months back. Erm, Elton John, George michael are all queerer than queer.... and of cos Stephen Gately from the now defunct Boyzone. OMG gay is infiltrating the world!! Kill'em all!! (right.... me being a liberal person, dun really care. As long as they give me good music, i dun give a damn if they are gay, bi, str8 or trans.... hahaha)

ok here attached are some of the abovementioned fugly (YES! i said it again) RUFUS WAINWRIGHT. if anyone is interested in his songs, lemme noe. i can transfer them to u!

I think i have run out of creative juices.... i spent the last 5 mins thinking of how to open today's post. but here it goes anyway.

1. I got my my first french test and i am glad to say i scored rather decently! haha so proud of myself. JE NE SUIS PAS SUCKY AT FRENCH! haha. but then again.... confirm plus guarantee plus CHOP CHOP CHOP gonna S/U.

2. Watched a dance production by NUS Dance Emsemble with my fellow dancers It was well worth my time and the pieces were stunning to say the least. PLUS! i saw a fat woman with some serious cleavage. In the words of Lijin, "If her cleavage look like her ass, what does her ass look like?" that woman should seriously wear push up bra before gravity gets her good

3. Memoirs of a Red Autumn (KR production). The set was beautifully set up. the songs were well written. the band was fantastic. On the downside, there was no plot. and it was farrrrrr too draggy. but all in all, a mark up from last year's. Good job all production people.

4. have been watching too much downloaded drama. yes i am a pirate and i am not ashamed to say it! so bite me.... Lost S2E10, Desperate Housewives S2E15, Grey's Anatomy S2E15 and The OC S3E13 heeeeeerre i come!!

on a totally unrealated note, it irks me how nice other people's blogs are. seriously. (and by that i am talking abt Miss Law Dingying). Damn u woman....heh

i do apologise to my loyal readers for not updating my blog more frequently.... i am plaqued with a disease... , which hinders me from doing so.... which i will tell u right abt now.

Ok, so you all know how very much i like to sleep. like more than your average normal human being. i can sleep like there is no tmr. APPARENTLY, my doctor friend (okok, not exactly doctor yet but studying medicine) told me that i may be suffering from Chronic Fatigue Syndrome..... yes i kid you not. There's actually a disease allocated for people who sleep too much.... and it doesn't really bother me that i HAVE a disease.... it's the way they put it. CHRONIC.... like theres no cure (which actually is the case). and it sounds as if i am abt to die within the next half a year....

so me being me, with nothing much to do googled this unspeakable disease and here's wat i found:

"Chronic fatigue syndrome, or CFS, is a debilitating and complex disorder characterized by profound fatigue that is not improved by bed rest and that may be worsened by physical or mental activity. Persons with CFS most often function at a substantially lower level of activity than they were capable of before the onset of illness. In addition to these key defining characteristics, patients report various nonspecific symptoms, including weakness, muscle pain, impaired memory and/or mental concentration, insomnia, and post-exertional fatigue lasting more than 24 hours. In some cases, CFS can persist for years. The cause or causes of CFS have not been identified and no specific diagnostic tests are available.

Some other symptoms include abdominal pain, alcohol intolerance, bloating, chest pain, chronic cough, diarrhea, dizziness, dry eyes or mouth, earaches, irregular heartbeat, jaw pain, morning stiffness, nausea, night sweats, psychological problems (depression, irritability, anxiety, panic attacks), shortness of breath, skin sensations, tingling sensations, and weight loss."

So yeah, i am rather bothered now.... cos i swear i have at least 80% of those symptoms..... and the fact that my so called doctor fren Dr Chang, told me that there's no cure.... isnt really helping much either.

So yeah..... seriously. help me out here. DUN CALL OR SMS ME IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NITE..... cos i dun off my phone. so it disturbs my sleep. DO NOT DO NOT CALL ME OR SMS ME IN THE MIDDLE OF THE AFTERNOON!!! cos i will be having my afternoon naps. (somehow, it seems as if everyone hates me and calls me on my phone whenever i am having naps.... like every 5mins. seriously.... cosmic forces are playing a joke on me) this is a desperate plea.

with that said..... peace out y'all.....zzzZZZZ

wahhhh so exciting!!! Orchids are actually blooming in my room!! first time ever!! usually they just wilt before the buds open.... but now, some of them are actually opening up!! So exciting! and i didnt even give them a proper vase..... hahaha okok. THANKS AILI FOR THE ORCHIDS!!

here are some photos taken over the CNY..... apparently this is a good year for those born in the year of pig.... which is me. apparently the sun is gonna be shining exceptionally bright and the fortune teller says i need a lot of sun my entire life. so thats extra good for me.... hopefully


i think i look god damn photogenic..... dun u agreeeeeeeee?


Me and and my mum and i auntiesssss

My family

Family portrait!! (mum's side).... notice the cute fashion accessory that's sitting on my lap. absolutely adorable
me and my dad..... who knew i would end up not looking like him.... i think. hehe