MAKE IT WERQ!!!

Dun u just HATE IT when u are on leave and people call u and kajiao u.... HATE IT. really cant wait to just go overseas so i can have a reason NOT to bring my office hp around.

Anyway today was spent trying to fix everything. my laptop fan has been giving me some problems for the past week, shutting itself down whenever its too hot. finally had the time to go back to NUS to fix it.... and also the battery that doesnt last beyond 3 mins. hahaha. i have been using a laptop as a desktop for the past few months cos i can't move it around anymore!! took the familiar bus back to school and had lunch at science canteen. yeah i still like being a student. school is still much funner than work.

Also got to change my ezlink card cos the previous one is just USELESS and getting me stuck at gantries... always embarrassing me esp during rush hour when everyone behind is waiting for my card to work!! dun u just miss the days when u we had the flimsy plastic transitlink card that NEVER fails.... i wonder why they phased that out cos that was lighter and like i said, always works.

yeah.... finally my long weekend is coming to an end. argh. totally suffering from ergophobia please..... *groans.... and i'm so ready to move on from this silence.

supersized weekend!!

yeah ok i decided not to go for work afterall on monday so yay to me.
On thursday nite, my colleagues and I decided we should hang out for real for once. We had our weekly capt ball game and den proceeded to Tanjong Pagar for dinner. At some cafe bistro place which serves quite decent and unique food!! I forgot the name but i think next time 8gz outing can be here! and the ambience is quite nice too! After that we decided to go to thai disco (ok dun judge me).... some place called club ratchada at somerset..... damn ulu please its in the middle of a carpark.

And i tell u i swear, althou it is already considered a proper club, it is still damn sleazy by my standards. u have girls dancing pole dance in fishnet stalkings (ultimate trashniess) and its like one of those places u hear on the news "gang fight occurs at nightspot" wah lao.... but ok la since cam wanted us to experience this, so we obliged. its one of my most boring nite out ever hahaha cos firstly, i dun understand thai songs. secondly, i'm not really into.... ok. never mind. so i just watched American Idol results on another tv which was on silent mode..... (damn that janet jackson performance was hot, even without the music) and yay Lee Dwyze won.... watever.

On Friday, step invited us to her house for steam boat with her very happy frens. got guys and girls. But before that we went to watch SATC2 at AMK hub.... all kinda went well until we realised people were saying we sat on their seats.... so we went out, check our tickets and realised STEP WENT TO BOOK THURSDAY TICKETS FOR FRIDAY SHOW. congrats and fuck her life. so we (meaning they) made a big fuss saying its the system's fault.... thou i secretly think she didnt check before confirming. HAHAHA. OH WELL. so we missed the first 10mins of the show due to this fiasco and there were still extra seats in the front so we went in and continued with the movie.... and the usher was so traumatised by us he gave us free drinks and popcorn. FHL.

ANW, highlight of the nite was of cos steamboat at Step's house..... NICEST STEAMBOAT EVER PLS. we had top grade beef, cheese sausages, prawns, bacon strips, vege.... with shuper shiok shabu sauce and chilli. wah lao i was never really a steamboat person but MAN DOES IT ROCK (and yes we shud do this for our next  next 8gz outing!!). The whole dinner was rather weird cos we have people who likes other people on the table but the feeling is not reciprocated so..... awkwarddddd. drama mama please. but of cos i didnt care i just sat down and ate.... didnt really talk much cos i didnt know many people so i obediently sat beside step and was her slave the whole nite. i was on my very best behaviour please. u would WANT o bring me home to meet ur mother.

after that since we were all bloated, wasnt the best time to like.... club cos we were all feeling sticky and bloated and unsexy so we went to Srgn Gardens for more drinks. loves it. i didnt drink alcohol ok.... lycee frappe.... totally gay. and then we went home. it was an interesting nite indeed!!!

Saturday was damn busy please. Woke up early in the morning to do my presentation slides (ok even thou i wasnt presenting i still had the decency to help out with the slides. tell me i am good) Went swimming in the afternoon and waited for step to fetch us to MacRitchie Reservoir to meet ct water and alibaba to WALK THE DOGGIESS!!!!! so fun!!!

we were there for only about an hour not cos we were tired..... but cos TAMMY KHAW and LOH YAOYAO were total spoilt bitches who REFUSED TO WALK after 1 hour....i swear i wanted to spank their asses. but they were too cute.... so we decided to go back instead.

Aili and water and i went to have early dinner at Thomson Fat Joe burger which was awesome by the way. please drink their peanut butter banana milkshake..... sinfulness. like licky peanut butter with every sip. after a VERY full dinner we skipped over to Long House to drink beer like the UNCLES we are. and feasted on chicken wings..... unglamness.

Went home and took a nap cos i knew my nite only just started. woke up at 9 to meet cbn and tianhe to write cbn's wedding emcee script..... omg very weird cos its the first time im meeting his fren (my emcee partner) but he's a nice guy so hopefully everything will turn out well.... after an hour or so, chiong back home to bathe and change to go clubbing!!! (wah i feel damn shagged even as i am typing this)

Met Joash Dwirtyboy jhene pam and step at tp..... got semi pissed drunk cos must be gentlemen right...... buy drinks for them.... end up all i drink ma de. den went on the dance floor and didnt flirt with anyone... ok yes i am a loser. the opportunity was presented to me but i was too shy to do anything about it. SORRY OK. i am a noob. there's a reason why i am still single. shuddap..... SIAN. i wanna smack myself sometimes. ZDBY flirt...TMDTTM. dance until very late please. slept at 5am....

and woke up at 10am TO CONTINUE WITH MY SLIDES.... the things we do for work.... and last minute arrowed presentations. totally zonked out please..... do do do. then realised its time to go for dance class at danzpeople with 8GZ!!!!!!!! ok la only got 5gz cos one in non-existent, one is in malaysia and one is.... i dunno wtf he is doing but watever.

Due to the lack of sleep and being hungover, the entire hour i was struggling to keep up with steps but man oh man is ahmad goodddddd. i love the choreo!! dunno if i shud go next week to continue with it.... SIAN i dun wanna pay to dance. it aint right.. HAHHA. dunno la fark. but it was indeed a very good workout. no one was sweating but i was sweating out buckets of toxins in my semi zonked out state.

Chiong-ed home after class got i had to go grandma house to eat dinner.... and now i am typing this blog cos i am waiting to go out to CLUB AGAIN!! people take leave to rest i take leave to stay out late and torture myself and spend money.... loves it. WHO CARES..... i can and i will.

Tmr is gonna be another busy day cos i got to:
1. book family holiday
2. go back nus to get my crappy laptop fan fixed before the warranty expires. and maybe ask them to reformat my comp cos i am too lazy to figure out how
3. go swimming
4. do watever else that pleases me.

OK THATS IT!!!! june 18 is nearing and i am so EXCITED. are you?!

So professional please

Next time need emcee please call me.

on a side note. FUCK MY FUCKING LIFE looks like i got to cancel my leave on monday cos someone was smart enuff to schedule briefing to CEO on the same day..... NOW THEN TELL ME..... angsty.

YAY and :((

so i FINALLY got my $$$ and i am totally happy and proud of myself. the sad thing was thou.... i had no one to share the joy with (except my family). That is the saddest part...... then i saw bide online and he was the first person i told.

happy, yet sad.

Impulse retail therapy leads to being majorly screwed

I dunno what is happening to my bank acct. it dwindling faster than you can say Greek-economic-crisis. I swear. it's halfway thru the month and it is down to almost 2 digits. MY GOD. it's the first time in my life i received a reminder letter from Singtel to PAY MY BILL..... why? cos no more money in my acct to do GIRO. seriously where the hell is all my cash going to?!?!?! and it's totally not helping that my bonus is not coming anytime soon.

And i got so stressed out by my lack of money.... i went on retail therapy yesterday. FML. i swear. i got so bored at home i literally just went out to vivo, aiming to spend as much money as i possibly can. So in the end i bought:

1. Ted Baker belt
2. Pedro work shoes
3. Superdry t-shirt
4. Zara white shirt

SO HAPPY PLEASE!!! Ted baker lei mai siao siao. i tot i could finally own a ted baker white shirt.... but the sleeves were either too short for the small size or the fit was too loose for the m size. DAMN SAD. And then i saw another white shirt from zara and it fit perfectly.... uh huh and yes that's like 200th zara shirt.... i have come to realised that i am destined to wear zara cos the rest just doesnt fit me as well..... not like i didnt try other brands... DAMN SAD. I think next time i dun even have to try zara shirts anymore cos i know exactly what my size is and i know it will deffo fit me snugly.

yeah so all in all i spent 350bucks (on my credit card) in a matter of 90mins and went home happy like a hummingbird. and KO-ed on the mrt.... geez didnt know shopping was so draining. i still owe my mama money, owe waterboi rawa money, still have to pay for the bitch. i will probably owe singtel next month's bill, my insurance money. and of cos my credit card bill which is gonna totally blow my pocket deep deep.

OH and yes i am attending a fren's wedding later. so that means another 100bucks down the drain. FUCK MY LIFE. BONUS HURRY COME PLEASE. i have never been so desperate for cash.

on a totally unrelated note, IS THE GREYS ANATOMY 2HR SEASON FINALE AWESOME OR WHAT!!!! i thought this season was super draggy with the teddy-hunt-christina love triangle... or the other one involving lexie-alex-sloane. BUT WAH LAO this is the first time i got so scared watching a drama please...... gun shots everywhere... everyone totally dying. i literally had to hug my pillow to watch it. i know its damn gay but it's SO GOOD.

and flashforward still sucks. gonna be cancelled also. haha.

nailed it

Duh hahaha. so my jitters were pretty much unwarranted cos i think i did a damn good job today (if i could say so myself). besides a couple of stumbles which is quite normal, i didnt make any major blunders!! some people actually came up to me and said i have a nice voice (i for one hate my voice cos its too nasal. sometimes i wished i had a baritone voice).... maybe they are just in love with me... what to do i am so charismatic. HAHA. So YAY good for me..... now i dun feel so scared about screwing up my frens wedding emceeing coming up.... gasp next month.

and i hate it that........ ok never mind i shant say anything. cos it would be too obvious............... hate it. je te deteste.

sometimes i feel like a fish trapped in a small aquarium.... there are so many things i wanna try.... but i dun have the courage to just do it. humji-ness. ok very tired now. geez. bye bye.

Relax.... it's like dance :)

Being an emcee is probably like dance.... at least that's what i tell myself. once u get thru the first line, the rest will come naturally.

Wish me luck tmr!!! we will have a blast :))

Holiday

yeah i think i need a holiday. pronto. sometimes i wish i can book a ticket, pack my bags and just leave this place without letting anyone know where i am going.

Pinkdot & house partiesssssss

Since i missed the inaugural pinkdot last year, i tot i should just go this time and "make up the numbers" haha. and since i only have one pink shirt, i had to wear it. And of cos i knew i was going to kill myself under the sweltering heat so i wore my super short shorts.... at least can air my legs.... NOT ENUFF PLEASE cos i was sweating like a mad cow the entire time.

so cute right the mascot hahaha. anyway i didnt bring a camera so all these are kup-ed from other people's facebook..... so anyway where was i. ok yeah pink dot... everyone has to wear pink in support of the freedom to love... naturally honglim park was swarmed with a sea of pink happy people.... and it looks something like this...

it was totally a last minute thing so i decided to go alone... damn sad i have no frens... ok watever. and like i said it was so bloody hot so note to self: next time wear a pink singlet instead. had to miss voguelicious cos i really buay tahan the heat.... which was fine cos i saw them the nite before at tp. haha.

Made a mad dash to get into the mrt cos i was damn sticky and icky.... off to vivo to get booze and cake for Andi's housewarming party! yay house parties rock. esp if it is not in my house cos i hate cleaning up.

Look at this a view to kill!! randomness potluck with char kway teow, bbq chicken wings, shepard's pie, golden pillow curry bread, prok ribs.... eat until wanna vomit cos its all meat. hahahah.

my plea to ask everyone to wear pink was totally IGNORED... damn sad. ok watevs. BE THAT WAY.

The lamer and gay-er people had to leave earlier cos.... they are lame that way. ki siao please where got people leave at 11 for house parties. the rest of us made a beeline down to cheers to get more booze... talked nonsetop with the rest till 2am.... talk about 100 year old jokes.... complain about life in general.

and meibao the loser who said "u better make my stay worth it" promptly went to nap at 1am. LOSER eh ah bao....

REALLY VERY FUN PLS. cos we only meet like this every 6 months... cant wait for andi to come back from NYC then we can thrash his house again!! hahaha

Thanks to Henry too for coordinating! Henry is the new CC. I have officially passed the organiser baton to him thank god. Here's the fat bitch saying BYEEEEEEEEE! hahaha. (ps i think martin rocks cos he makes me look good in every pic. hahaha)

GREAT

as if this week wasn't bad enuff.... imagine my HORROR when i came home from dance practice all tired and shagged out and this nice envelope from IRAS greeted me and i realised:

I HAVE TO PAY $567.80 FOR INCOME TAX THIS YEAR

FUCK MY FUCKING LIFE INDEED. growing up sucks ass.

=P

my mother just asked me: chye chye what does it mean when someone types =P in emails
me: sticks out tongue
mother: huh?
me: you know.... like =)
mother: ok that one i know la.... but what is =P
me: the P is the tongue la wah laooooo
mother: oh like that one ahhhhhh..... *faints

on a seperate note. just came home from an outing with my army mates. had a blast. totally made my day........ why cant life be like this everyday?

so.messed.up.part2

i drink.
i cheat.
i betray my friends.
i lie to my family.
i hate my job.
i hate my life. period.
i pretend to be all nice in front of u
but trust me i am a wolf in sheep's clothing.
i am mean.
i am vindictive.
YES i am vindictive. that's the word.
i am a stalker.
i dunno who to turn to.
i dunno who i can trust.
hell i dun even know myself most of the time.
and then i just wallow in self pity and i drink.
back to square one. fantastic.
i have done so many horrible things to so many people.
and they dun even know it.
i am sick.
i am perverted.
i am angry all the time.
i don't understand how i can be this angry with everything.
i wasn't like this when i was young.
fuck, i am damaged goods.
sometimes i tell myself to focus on my positive qualities and maybe the bad ones will go away.
and then i think
WHAT POSITIVE QUALITIES?!
WHO AM I KIDDING?!
that's it.
i am done.
at the end of the day, i can only tell myself.
i am human.
and i have flaws.
...
but even then, sometimes that's not enough.

so.messed.up

what the hell is wrong with me man.......... im a freak. im a psycho. maybe it's about time i see a shrink.

Unspeakable secrets

was a pretty noneventful friday.... helped alexis bitch move her luggage.... treated like her slave. ah never mind la.

Went to cold storage to buy food for the "party" at nite..... when i came back home i realised the bloody cashier didnt put my chicken in the pastic bag so FML i gotta walk all the way back to get the chicken. yay im glad mas and bitch liked the aglio olio. next time i will put less chilli... cos i also buay tahan. talk a lot of cock, whacked a lot of drinks and snuggled in bed. so fun pls. i need to get my own bachelor's pad soon.

There. the picture says it all. i am a freak. i did something really horrible to someone. something which i cant believe i've done again, to someone so close. and i dun feel any remorse. nothing. there is seriously something wrong with me. dun ask me what i did. that's a secret better left unsaid.

ok bye bye.

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So true.

Sometimes my brain feels like....

this. geez i am so tired. tired of everything. when is my next holiday?

secrets.....

everyone loves wallowing in self pity sometimes dun we?
you
me
him
they
everyone...

catching last trains.....

I was just complaining to Xinwei the other day, how i felt super pumped up at work. But once i step out of office, i feel like a laptop with 20% batt life remaining.... super drained. and then i commented that maybe work is giving me adrenaline rush.... geez right. work and adrenaline rush totally doesnt go together.

ANYHOOOOSSS. i've been a very good boy these few weeks. never go out on weekdays. cos i am going broke once again. but weekend parties are a must. Met up with the old foggies of dance for KTV at clementi. Never really been a big fan of KTV cos i dun believe in paying shit loads of money to sing. and yes once again this experience didnt really change my perception. $34 bucks is really just a wee bit too much. i can watch 3 movies with change to spare. not that i didnt enjoy their company but yeah.....

went for supper with and upon realising that it was 1140pm, step and i decided to catch the train back home, hoping catch the last NEL connecting at Outram. when we were at clementi mrt the announcement said that it was the last east bound train arriving in 3 mins. so we panicked like mad.... and then HORROR OF HORRORS my card refused to work on me. dammit. it has been giving me problems for about 2 months and always fail on me when i need it to work the most. i wanted to go to the counter to get my card checked but there were 100 people in front of me and step already ran up the escalator so i tot FUCK MY LIFE i'm gonna miss the last train home. then luckily the staff just asked me to go in front of the line to get my card checked and luckily it worked and i managed to get on the train. so kanjiong pls..... really wanna scare an old man like that.

it was a super fun ride back with step.... we tot FOR SURE we couldnt catch the connecting NEL back home. so we were thinking where to alight along the east west line so we wun have to spend so much money on cab home.... then think think think.... check her iphone for train timings.... den as the doors open at raffles place (interchange for NS line, 2nd best option to get home cos we cna both drop at bishan).... step said "OH MY GOD WHY IS THERE A TRAIN THERE!!!"... den for about a nano-second we both stunned. "EH U WANNA RUN OR NOT" i screamed at her..... without even waiting for her answer I CHIONG LIKE A CHINAMAN ON STERIODS with a child lagging behind me. SO FUNNY PLEASE!!! both laugh like mad in the train. other than that it was a pretty lame friday nite cos there was no alcohol involved.

Went to watch iron man with carol weiwei and qy. quite nice... but sequels are never nicer than the originals.... since it was still early, we went to timbre to eat and drink cos its happy hour YAY!!! pent up frustration on friday released on sat. LOVES IT. ALCOHOL!!! went for desserts at cedele and then went home to get the car to go for a spin. i think i am a damn good driver.... even thou i havent driven a car regularly in YEARS. but somehow i still dun like the idea of driving. i rather take a cab and sleep in it.

OK THATS IT. GONNA DANCE AGAIN NEXT WEEK. see how it goes.....  BYE BYE!!