worst luck EVER

*latest update
my comp is officially crazy.... it is working again..... why does it have to tease me like this.... make me live in uncertainty and fear..... fear that one morning when i wake up it will show me the blue screen of death again....
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my god i am having the worst computer year EVER..... my comp just crashed again for the 3rd time this sem..... i dunno wat the hell's wrong with it. KAN NI NA!!!! heng i backed up all my work after the horrible incident one week ago.... (wait it hasnt even been one week. that was only5 days back!!!) otherwise i i have to redo my traffic project which i just finished literally minutes ago, i will just break down and CRY!!!! nA BEI!!!! how issit possible that a new hard disk can just crash 2 times in 1 month>??? i dun fucking believe it.

nows a really good time for me to start reading my fyp books since i have 0 entertainment left...

Nostlagia

Random youtube-ing led me to remember those days when i was still a geeky teen trying to be hip and cool with copious amounts of gel lumped into my hair,

being the New Kid on the Block changing classes after the first 3months due to my disatrous higher chinese grades,

to the days when david beckham (yes that was 100years ago) came to my school and created such a fiasco and me chasing him around like some mental stalker.... in fact the whole school turned into IMH for one day with crazy pple running around.....

to the days when western food was the only food i'd eat,

when i would actually WANT to wear my tie cos my uniform actually looks the best out of the entire country and is wearable to orchard road,

and of cos to the days when we memorised mass dances as if they were our religion and always look forward to the next opportunity to dance all 6 (i think) out

and then i saw this....



6 years on, and i finally realised VJC massdance actually looks like shit. WAHAHAHA. retarded.

hopefully 10 years from now, future VJCians wun be dancing to the electronic beats of Savage Garden's I Want You.... That would truly be so last millenium and so so tragic. LOL!!!

of disappointment and motivation

My final initiation was that of utter chaos, zero respect, no coordination and total lack of discipline, both with the seniors and juniors.... which makes me disappointed. Somehow i can't help but feel disappointed with a lot of things lately in hall.....

and i can't find motivation to do anything these days.... i wished there was a place, like a supermarket that sells motivation and you can buy it and everything will be fine. Seems like i work better with deadlines or when i am super stressed.

big fat sigh

UPDATE (part vingt et un)

Woots!

1. Life after Design Project has been quite relaxed..... but i still wake up at 8am everyday. Dunno why. I feel guilty if i wake up too late.... Everyday wake up, on computer, look for information for projects, read readings, go for lunch dates, come back for afternoon naps.... maybe exercise. stare the the computer for longer periods of time. haha. exciting right! Next time no one eat lunch with you, please call me

2. Being freer basically means i can go for more career talks.... which has started since school reopened....and i only knew about their existence last week..... But then again i wouldnt have time to go before. And its quite interesting.... Like i was about 1m away from the ex Minister of Finance for Philippines, who is now the Asia Pac chair for Credit Suisse. When he said "i've joined Credit Suisse for about 2 years now. Before that i was the Minister of Finance in the Philippines", you can almost hear the collective gasp in the audience.

Aiyah but then again, the whole LT was filled with heaps and mounts of people, i doubt they will even consider a mediocre student like me.... and i'm not really interested in bank jobs anyway, even thou they pay you copious amounts of money. I'm just hoping the hospitality thing will work out.....

3. Dance Reflections Hybrid performance this Saturday!!! Super excited! In need of some arty farty elements in my life right now.

4. My blogspot account is in CHINESE!!!! i tried changing it but it always comes out the next day!!! WHY????

5. My space bar is semi spoilt. I dunno why god is torturing my beloved comp. First hard disk crashed..... then cd rom drive almost died.....now he is trying to take away my space bar.... boo hoo. so please excuse me if my messages in msn looksomethinglikethis because my space bar is in a semi-conscious state right now....

Yeap thats basically it for now...... reminder: no lunch dates please call me!!! i very free!!!!

Missing the good times

Somehow, this was the best combination anyone can have..... great food, fantastic company. That's what i needed. Thanks for coming and hope to see you guys soon again!

To go or Not to go?

Been struggling with the idea of going or not going to D&D this year..... Yes ok fine, it's my final year.... but i hate it that i have to do stuff just because i am final year..... I mean you might as well say.... "oh it's your final EOGM... or It's your final election rally, you HAVE TO GO"..... that's just stupid.

All the signs are pointing to me not to go.... i have lessons on friday till 9 which i dun exactly feel like skipping.... 50bucks plus buying costume stuff after spending nearly 200bucks fixing my comp, erm no thanks. And somehow, i just dun feel like going.....

ok, D&D was fun.... the first 2 times.... but to do it another time would be.... how should i say this.... overkill. I mean i wouldnt even have gone last year if not for the fact that my ex-bitch paid the 50bucks for me..... i just dun get why cant we just wear proper clothes.... Plus i dun think i would be able to top this:

ok.... i think i have made my decision.... i'm.... not going. *shocker* let's just leave it as it is.... SORRY my fellow FYFs. Good luck and have fun!

It's Britney BITCH

My girl is back with a vengeance!!! WOots.... althou it sounds like Umbrella with the incessant repeating of words (Umbrella ella ella eh eh eh)... but this song is FIERCE hahah!!!! Loves it!

this is one of the funniest shit i have ever seen....thanks weiwei!~~~~

NOT DEAD YET!!!

YAY my Design Project presentation is FINALLY over!!! *big sigh of relief*....phew. after a few days of non stop, midnite burning... we finally managed to compile a losuy first draft and a pretty decent presentation.....I actually cut short my mother's birthday lunch on saturday, came back to school to work with my team members from 1230pm all the way to Sunday 8am.... i nearly fainted. Now we just need to do some changes and we can submit the final draft in!!!! YAY!!!

but big BOOOO to still being laptopless.... the computer room is basically my 2nd home right now. Apparently there is something wrong with my cd/cdrom drive that prevents it from being rebooted. ta ma de. very not used to being without my laptop... its like i'm vulnerable.... and naked... ok maybe not naked but u get my point. Considering buying a new laptop if the repairing costs too much.... see how la.

Been missing out on IBG.... quite a lot. And it saddens me that i am absent from it most of the time... Due to design project and late nite classes, didnt manage to play frisbee one last time.... in fact i only played in year 1 cos Jimmy was nice enuff to put me in court and didnt play in year 2 or 3 simply becos i was too damn lousy at sports.... and not really into IBG as a whole. hmmm oh well.... we can't have everything can we??

Looking forward to thursday for Bash and friday to submit my final draft for the project and then i can kiss my fat ass goodbye to those losers!!!! haha

BLACK HAWK DOWN!!!!!

boo hoo!!!! my laptop crashed since monday nite.... the blue screen of DEATH!!!! busy with work and i havent got the time to really go fix it. My toshiba warranty just ended and the people at toshiba care centre, comp centre and yih keep playing tai-chi until i dunno who to ask for help.....

i have been stuck in KR computer room to do my report for the past few days and surprisingly, its quite a good place to concentrate on doing work, plus 24hrs free aircon!!!

den came chongyunn aka my comp wizard who agreed to help me reboot. BUDDEN!!!! apparently my cd rom drive is spoilt and cannot read my recovery disk!!!! TA MA DE!!!!

now i got a new 40gig hard disk that i just bought but a spoilt cd drive...i dunno what to do liao

i wanna faint

Remember the sucky design project i have to do..... remember i said the other 2 groups each have a Dean's Lister? And remember how i said i think i may be the smartest in my group???

i just realised.....one of my team mate has ajaw dropping cap of 3.... and the other has 3rd class right now..... the other malay girl rarely comes for project meetings and always comes up with last minute excuses like "i've got a wedding to attend" or "sorry i can't come today because i have a fever" or "sorry i got an urgent family issue to resolve".... the last guy is a touch rugby IVPlayer and doesnt't seem very smart to me......So i am quite sure yours truly is the smartest guy in the group with a wonderful cap of 3.67.

Some shitty luck i have to get this group man.....

Update!!! (part vingt)

hey.... not dead yet, just super busy.

1. Currently swarmed with super a lot of things to do. Despite the fact that i am only taking 4 modules (FYP, Design Project, 2 level 5 modules), somehow i feel that its more tiring than when i was taking 7 modules. It's only the 2nd week and i already feel like breaking down.

2. The fact that i got assigned to a lousy group for a lousy design project doesnt help much either. Plus i have to produce the design within effectively 3 weeks. And this has made me question my decision to go SEP.... What if i didnt go for SEP, i wouldn't have wasted 6 months in France not studying anything substantial.... i would have taken more Level 3 electives in NUS... and therefore i wouldn't die so badly for design project.

i dunno what the hell is going on in Lab and i'm the only person in the group who hasnt taken the 2 prerequisite modules..... And the rest of my grpmates who DID take those modules are damn CHUI!!!!! the other group has dean's listers and i think i am the smartest in my group.... with a super duper cap of 3.67..... HAIZZZZZ. Lousy grpmates plus pple with lousy attitudes = die very badly. Even if i wanna be on also cannot.....

3. Just finished running probably the last race of my life.... and probably the last IBG game. Old man.... only managed to get 3rd place for the 4 x 100m. Heng someone fell, otherwise i wouldnt have caught up with and get 3rd.... in the end i pulled my hamstring and had to drop out of the medley last minute. OLD MAN!!!!! Wouldnt have time nor the energy nor the talent to participate in the other games... mainly because i dun do ball sports. Damn SMU for taking swimming out of the events this year.... my only time to shine.... has been robbed away from me. sobz.

4. My wing is damn unhappening..... why is my wing always so unhappening??? And someone has smelly feet/shoes. ta ma de

5. Very stressed.

Formal Dinner

Ok. by the request of Shanny i've decided to post some stuff.... had formal dinner last nite. For the 2nd year consecutive, i had no date. And thats not the worst part.... i can handle not having a date. i hate small talk anyway.... THE WORST PART is.... having a last minute arranged date pang seh you... But then again i cant blame her.... she had a last minute family thing to attend to. Oh wells.... gives me the chance to hang out with the girls and their dates... and i must say everyone looked mighty fine last nite!

And in conjunction with dating game's formal dinner, the entire hall went down to GV Grand/Marina for a lame movie called License to Wed. Lame because it stars Robbin Williams (whose last hit was probably Mrs Doubtfire), Mandy Moore (whose last hit was..... no wait she has no hit) and some unknown guy. Trust the FWOCers to choose such a lame movie to make us watch, the same weekend as Bourne Ultimatum is released. I wouldnt even mind if they made me watch Knocked Up instead.... at lease the reviews were good.

Yeah that's about it. Design Project is literally killing me.... hopefully the next 4 weeks passes by quickly. And it's raining.... nice cool morning. WHich makes me wanna....zzzZZZZ

Back into Familiarity

First day of school.... finally had the long awaited bluestones reunion. 'Cept for the chio french angmoh. It's great to see my project mates again, since basically almost everyone left for IA and Exchange last sem. Munchie Monkeys still rocks.... for NUS standards that is, or maybe i was just too hungry.

Speaking about the French angmoh, she was from the same school and even the same dept i went for SEP in.... wah kaoz damn small world can. She said she has seen me before in class, no thanks to the big yellow water bottle i always put right smack in front of me.... but somehow i dun have any recollection of ever seeing her. Althou i am quite sure i dun suffer from All-French-look-the-same-to-Singaporeans Syndrome (also known as AFLTSTS Syndrome, something i stole from Weiwei's blog), i just dun remember seeing her.

But she's quite nice, and she speaks quite good english. She even commented that Singaporeans are so damn friendly, unlike the French (yes the french blasting their own folks at home.... what TRAVESTY). And me being the nice local who've just experienced some not-so-nice French hospitality decided to be kind and gave her my contacts. My motto this academic year is to be nice to all Exchange Students who look lost and blur.... but somehow that only transcends and applies to Angmohs.... i cant bring myself to be nice to Ah nehs and Ah viets. Ah tiongs maybe still can.

YEah....

best eff-ing dance of the season

Still alive

Sorry for the lack of updates... been really busy the past 2 weeks. Waking up at 9am, going for Rag Dance Practices... sleeping at 2am everyday and the cycle repeats itself.

Unfortunately, my final year of Rag was not a successful one.... didn't win any major awards (damn those Sheares bitches) nor did i enjoy myself very much during practices... dunno why. Probably because of the generation gap.... or the fact that i am the oldest rag dancer...

i remember last year when Emily and i were back in the float after finishing dancing, we were practically screaming and yelling in joy and euphoria that we did it.... but i felt nothing this year.... like seriously nothing. i was just glad it's over....ok i should stop harping about the fact that i am old when i am not even 24 and stop all these negativity.

School starts tomorrow and i am sort of excited... but it doesnt feel like it's starting... mainly because my ivle is super empty.... and so is my timetable. Seems like i only have lessons on Monday and Fridays. Ahhhh the life of a final year student.

Going to chiong next wednesday with th girls. Quite excited. other than that, my life is almost as mundane as i left it half a year ago. i leave you now with a picture of the KR Flight.

oh ok... this is the 201th post

oh man i had no idea i already past the 200th mark.... which is good.

Currently busy with Orientation.... my 4th orientation. Very bored with it.... Have been doing the same thing for 4 freaking years. Creativity pple CREATIVITY!!!! i dun even give a flying eff if i get a date or not for Dating Game and Formal Dinner... it's just so pointless. I've never kept in contact with the 2 girls i dated which proves to show Dating Game is ... totally lame-o.

Or maybe i'm just old... all those incessant cheering is really quite overkill.... KR yo-yo, yo-yo KR.... PLEASE, like seriously please shut up. Rag dance isnt as fun as last year, without all my bestest dance mates... super big fat sigh. Jaded.... Cynical... and totally uninterested at this point in time.

On a different note altogether.... i can't WAIT for school to start. ok, u can stone me now.

HAPPY 201th Post!! haha

the signs of aging..

has slowly started to creep in....

i'm not as flexible as i used to be

i cant run as fast as i used to run

i don't have as much stamina

my knees ache so bad after dance practice and exercising

in fact.... my whole body aches like mad

i wake up automatically in the morning and have trouble sleeping when there is sunlight.

sigh.... i'm becoming old.

HELPPPPPPPPPPPPP

I need to move back to hall NOWWWWWWWWW. My mother is irritating the CRAP outta meeeeeeeee!!!

i can't wait for monday to come for me to move back.... then i can have free access to the NUS pool, i don't have to pay nearly 5 bucks every trip back to hall for dance practices (which happens to 5 times a week!), i can go joggin at nite and i can sleep and wake up whenever i want without feeling guilty!

PLEASE LET MONDAY COME NOW.

Feeling useless

While I love meeting up with friends, catching up on what everyone else is doing, but sometimes i cant help but feel really useless. Like my useless-ness is magnified when everyone seems to be doing better and better.

I've got friends who are scholars, doctors, one working in the investor relations for world's largest palm oil company, accountants, insurance agents, civil servants.... everyone seems to know what they want to do with their lives, they know their goals.... and i'm 1 year from graduation and i have ZERO idea where i am heading, i have ZERO working experience, i have ZERO clue how to write a CV, i DUNNO if i wanna be an engineer....

i've always been slower to react.... like forever 慢三拍.... i dunno what i am good at, nor where my interest lies.... i think i'm quite screwed.