today, while i was watching downloaded eps of grey's anatomy, i glanced into my mirror. and the awful awful truth FINALY hit me. i-am-FAT. i know, somewhere, someones wants to stab a fork into my eyeballs and hurt me so bad.... but seriously. it's all about the clothes man. they CONCEAL your fats so you look skinny.... and i was fooled by that.... for months.

i mean ok. i am not exactly morbid obese. but in all seriousness, have u since the state of my stomach recently? it is NOWHERE the abs of steel i wanted.... since puberty. it's like all the fats seem to want to congeal and congregate at my waist.... and that is driving me insane. And i noe those really fat people must be thinking i have some kind of ally-mcbeal-bulimic-anorexic syndrome. but no. i am really fat.

ya see, i am a scrawny man. so any excess fat around my tummy would make me look like a malnutritioned ethiopian.... and probably carrying the ebola virus..... and the same amt of fat if transfered onto say..... moses lim, he would only look extra bloated. thats why i say i am fat.

which is why i hauled myself out for a jog just now, which nearly caused my heart to rip and my knees to fall apart. seriously if i keep abusing my knees like that, i will be paralysed by the time i am 30. but HOWWWWWWWWWW tell me how to get rid of my tummy!!!!! i want abs of steel..... in fact, i want steel of EVERYTHING!