today, while i was watching downloaded eps of grey's anatomy, i glanced into my mirror. and the awful awful truth FINALY hit me. i-am-FAT. i know, somewhere, someones wants to stab a fork into my eyeballs and hurt me so bad.... but seriously. it's all about the clothes man. they CONCEAL your fats so you look skinny.... and i was fooled by that.... for months.

i mean ok. i am not exactly morbid obese. but in all seriousness, have u since the state of my stomach recently? it is NOWHERE the abs of steel i wanted.... since puberty. it's like all the fats seem to want to congeal and congregate at my waist.... and that is driving me insane. And i noe those really fat people must be thinking i have some kind of ally-mcbeal-bulimic-anorexic syndrome. but no. i am really fat.

ya see, i am a scrawny man. so any excess fat around my tummy would make me look like a malnutritioned ethiopian.... and probably carrying the ebola virus..... and the same amt of fat if transfered onto say..... moses lim, he would only look extra bloated. thats why i say i am fat.

which is why i hauled myself out for a jog just now, which nearly caused my heart to rip and my knees to fall apart. seriously if i keep abusing my knees like that, i will be paralysed by the time i am 30. but HOWWWWWWWWWW tell me how to get rid of my tummy!!!!! i want abs of steel..... in fact, i want steel of EVERYTHING!

Organising a mahjong session with my friends is like watching an S-league soccer match. Its just a WHOLEEEEEE lotta waiting, and yet nothing ever happens. i hate it when pple are wishy washy. i hate it when pple cant seem to make up their minds. i hate it when promises are not kept. i want to play mahjong and i was given a GLIMMER of hope that it will happen tonight but NOOOOOOO. i was pang seh-ed and i am half-pissed.

i am NOT spontaneous. if things doesnt go the way i want them to, I FREAK OUT. spontaenity and me--- 2 totally different non-related things.... we mix together like oil and water. we dun click. we just dun. dun ask me why dammit.... i dun knowwwwwwwww!

Just some random pictures of my project group..... first time giving a presentation. And it went relatively ok in my opinion..... good job ya guys!!


Presenting, the management of Bluestones Int.

me and 2 hideous looking ties

Backstreet's back (ALRIGHT!!!)

Moses and i in a "normal" pose

Me, trying to lick Moses. For some unknown reason

Me and Robson. Notice how white my teeth are!!

Contrary to popular belief, i do club. in fact, i rather enjoy it. however, i only oblige to go on a very specific set of rules.

1. i have nice, presentable set of clothes to wear
2. i am comfortable with the people i am going with
3. i am feeling slightly rich
4. i am booked at least one week in advance (i lack spontaenity)

which probably explains why i club less than 10 times in my entire life. So it came as a shock (even to myself) when i agreed to go to eusoff hall bash, since it clearly violates rules 2, 3 and 4. especially rule number 4. (Being a metrosexual wannabe, i never ever violate rule number 1. its there just for show actually). i guess my brain must have been wired differently today when i woke up.....

i was quite excited to go... cos i'm quite sick of school. but phuture really sucks. the music sucks, there were too many people, even for a friday nite. singaporeans are truly a club-friendly bunch of people. maybe i should go open a club someday..... sure earn money. i digress. but got to knew some nicer eusoffians through chazz and xiling. yeah. not as stuck up as i think normal eusoffians are...

but things turn on a sour note when chazz, the resident angst ridden undergrad, had a foul mood due to the impermeable crowd cutting into us constantly. it turned so bad he had a mini scuffle with some guy. i mean i dun blame him.... the crowd was soooo bad, we were practically solid molecules vibrating about a fixed position. there was even a point when i swear i was making out with a column, simply because there were too many darn people.

but then again, no point spoiling everyone's fun by getting into an arguement right? (ok if anyone reads this, DO NOT under any circumstances ask chazz what happened. unless u hate me and wants to see me dead) i mean, yeah.... i love chazz to bits (as a friend, like i constantly say) but his wrath is something i would NOT want to cross path with, ever again.

was feeling a bit tired and my knees were too painful and weak. so i think i looked like a heroin junkie on the verge of having paralysis, still trying to act cool. aye. thank god we left soon after. in a jaguar no less. hehe. the perks of having rich friends....

saw rongwei before leaving!! havent seen him since school started! still looking good as usual, if not better!! was there with his supposed "we-are-just-normal-friends" girlfriend. hehe. u sly fox! its so nice to see him.... it's friends like him that remind me how great my life is. i mean, he obliged to go watch movie with me when i was having one of my mini breakdowns during first semester... (yes yes, i have breakdowns... go ahead. laugh). it made me feel tonnes better after and i owe him my life for that.

so yeah. what an eventful friday night isnt it? would have been better if more of our friends were there and the music didnt sucked ass..... haha.

Anyway, below are some of my funka pictures!! Dun you think i look so good in all the photossss?? i am so darn photogenic! if it isnt psychotic, i would marry myself....

So FINALLY swimming meet is over!! haha. it was a day of fashion faux pas, unsightly pubic hair and a day of utter flop-ness!! but it still felt good swimming competitively after one year (or half a year, after ibg. but then again, ibg's 25m is so ridiculous i hardly consider it a competition).

So i was placed the first swimmer for both free and breast. which i dun really like actually.... i prefer to know where i stand so i can better pace myself throughout. but oh well. it wouldnt have made any difference anyway.

at one point during the freestyle relay, i couldnt see anyone on either of my sides. so i figured, i was either 1. really fast, 2. really slow, or 3. there was a false start but my deaf ears didnt hear the whistle. But after some really deep thought, i guessed it was pretty much the second since i havent been training for long. and sure enough, i was the second last to touch the wall.... history truly repeats itself. how tragic.

but to console myself, the other halls had all types of ivp, nationals and even foreign imports, like the hungarian horntail, aptly named by chazz, who was incidentally wearing trunks with yellow volleyball pattern. 3 words-- fashion faux pas.

speaking of which, there were so many male swimmers wearing outrageously low hipster trunks that exposed some of (or rather the most of) their pubic hair. which to me is just unacceptable. i mean, if they wish to wear their trunks so low, the least and most civil thing the guys can do is to trim. like seriously. they display their pubic hair, as if something worth exhibiting. come on guys. everyone has pubic hair and there is no reason to let others see them. gross. otherwise, may i suggest getting a brazilian wax, which i contemplate having myself.... heheh. okok too much info here.

have fun y'all!

Dear Diary,

its only the 2nd week of school and i already cant breathe. i cant feel my pulse and my chest certainly isnt moving. i have a 33 hr week and that equates to no life. and due to my no life schedule, i cant go for one of my core modules tutorial.... after all sorts of permutations and combinations. why does shit like this always happen to me.... ta ma de

just went to cut my hair.... and sort of dyed it.... in a very not obvious color.... wondered if i wasted my money. i think i did. but i got my hair a nice 10min treatment, which cost me 25 bucks (just for treatment). i am like sooo broke now. maybe i should sue the hair salon for ripping me off.... damn u hair salons!!! (you guys better start complimenting my new hair cut and color or i will hack your heads off too)

the steppers are practicing outside my window now... which is quite annoying. i cant do my work. its half an hour to the Golden Globes. i am procastinating about writing my lab report and revising my notes. i noe its a bit early to revise anything. but i need my As. badly. Desperately.

i hope brokeback mountain wins..... considering its such a groundbreaking film.

oh ta ma de, my blk comm just jio-ed me to go chinatown for blk outing. i hate that place. and i hate crowds. i would rather spend the next 2 hours watching the golden globes. because i am such a banana. i dunno why pple like to use the word jio. its so...... boorish....and unrefined.... like crude oil. i hate that word. so people, STOP USING IT.

i am like writing a whole thesis on my nonsensical life here. if only i can write this much for my lab report. which i will start reading in like 10 seconds.

cant wait for tomorrow. tmr marks the last day of ihg.... for me. no more funka, no more ihg. life is good...... besides the fact that i have a 33hr week. but then you know that already, don't you?

peace out y'all

ok so i got into funka semis.... sorta have mixed feelings getting in. i'm happy... cos it means i'm not the lousiest team and i get to performa t taka. i'm semi- sian cos i have to practise the same dance for another week. which is super irritating. but i guess i just have to finish it. hopefully something good comes out of it

and AILI stop calling me the one who comes from changi.... u desker road woman. hehe. (somewhere in the background i hear sean paul's get busy playing and i see a cow shaking) you friggin' biatch!!!!

on a totally unrelated note, it has been raining for the past.... 36 hours. and it finally finally stopped. thank god. i need some sunshine in my life. i need to feel some heat in my fingers again

i am happy i made up with my fren again. i think we are ok. i hope. he seems to be friendly to me again. which is good. i never meant to put him down. he should know that i love him... as a friend (yes i love my friends, even if they are guys, and i am not afraid to say that out loud) and i never in any way wanted to make him feel like shit. so there.

i feel fat. i have a blob of thing hanging round my mid section. i am incoherent and i am so tired. i should stop writing. but i will not. because i have my loyal fans to entertain. i am monologuing.

stop messing with my brain. arghhhhhh.

so here i am... finally decided to haul ass and keep up with this blog... this i hope wudnt be my last post. considering school is about to start and being a lazy pig, i cant picture myself having this kind of discipline. alrighty. anyway, here are some of the top memorable moments of 2005 (in no particular order)!!

1. IHG Swimming. we were the underdogs.... and we came out acheiving better than expected! (2nd or third i think). no thanks to all the disqualifications made by the other halls. haha losers!

2. dance nite 2005. definitely a night to remember. the high of performing. dancing with my best friend. whats there not to like? too bad my friends werent there to support. but thats fine

3. rag dance!! i absolutely LOVED the experience! although the prince of darkness is no more, but the memories of it all was well worth months of practice. thanks step for being a fantastic choreo!

4. Stepping down as block comm. nuff said.

5. cost of vodka: $50
cost of boxers: $10
cost of me merlioning wearing only my boxers: priceless
thanks to chazz for clearing up my puke. lynn for giving me one tight slap and zhonghan + JP for making me feel that merlioning is no big deal. but no more man.... no more

6. funkamania 05/06. this hasnt exactly happened yet but i mean.... yeah. come support KONVICTS on 7th jan NUS forum!

7. my Europe trip!! c'est magnifique! from arguing about how to cook maggi mee to eating wierd cheese. from getting lost in the streets of venice to the shopping at champs elysees. from the theatres of the west end to the chapels in barcelona. i would do it all over again with my 2 bestest frens. in a hearbeat.

8. campfire for mr teo. hosting and leading songs for the 2nd time brought some nostlagia of yesteryears. i cant believe it's been 10 years of being a scout. once a scout, always a scout. truly.

9. falling out with my supposed best fren in hall. it was a stupid misunderstanding ( i think). i mean, i dun think it was my fault (i hope). i wished it didnt happen. it's so tragic. arghhh.

10. the day i got my results. this last sem of 2005..... whoa. best sem ever. keep up the good work man!

11. Xmas and New Year. Went to my first official Xmas party at Step's house. great food. great company. played mahjong the whole night. woohoo! watched fireworks at skee's house. great view. great company! woohoo!

so. 2005 came and went by. it was truly a year ful of unexpected surprises... full of twists and turns worthy of a hollywood epic. i am beginning to enjoy my university life more. made some new friends. danced my heart out. i'm lovin' it! hopefully 2006 will bring me to greater heights!
Happy New Year guys!

FINALLY, i finished mapping my sep modules. and guess what. i will be taking 12 modules there!! isnt that totally exciting?? i am so darn looking forward to it. imagine, spending 10k in france to be a blardy mugger! life is good man.....

and FINALLY, gonna have my first Funka prac..... anxious, excited. cant wait

death by chocolate..... totally. just came back from the much raved abt chocolate buffet at fullerton. OMG..... death by chocolate. i had to say it again. its waaaaay to much chocolate, even for willy wonka. i think i might have to self induce myself into puking. its terrible.

actually my frens and i didnt have a table.... cos my dear fren carol didnt book (so inefficient). so we ended up waiting and looking like some desperate pple trying to getourselves into some posh restaurant. we could smell the chocolate fountain from where we were waiting. and we wanted to kill those pple taking the food.

in the end we got a table (after carol and skee worked their female charm on the waiter.... seriously.... some womanly charms do work) ok. before we went to the buffet, we made a note to pace oursleves...... but i obviously didnt..... and i pretty much KOed after one hour, eating nothing but some fancy fusion of green tea & chocolate, chocolate fondue.... chocolate cake..... more chocolate cake. in the end we just ended eating the fruits, withour chocolate. cos it was just too much. i can still smell the cocholate fountain..... and it makes me wanna barf.

so we finally gave up and went to maxwell to have some real solid food. wahhhhh it feels good to have something warm and salty in my mouth...... seriously. chocolate buffet is a once in a lifetime thing..... i wun ever go back...... even if u bring me there in a sedan or pay for it. i am swearing off chocolate for at least one month. barf.

feeling very musical-ish after coming back from an absolutely mazing performance of RENT, i have decided to rank all the muscials i have watched in my short 22 years of living:

1. Phantom of the Opera
this huge mama of musicals is definitely the most amazing and grand. the sets are stunning and the songs are pretty much super well knowned. watched it 4 times, once in singapore when i was in pri6, twice in the cinema and once more in london's west end (tickets that cost me a whopping 37.50 pounds.... which roughly equates to over $110). the story is pretty simple. girls unknowingly becomes a huge sensation in opera business. girl meets boy. boy meets girl. both fall in love. girl's ugly mentor (but oozing tonnes of sexual charms) gets jealous and sparks off a series of misfortunes on the opera. mentor holds girl captive. boys held captive too (wat a wuss). mentor lets both go and escaped back into his lair. the end. The story might be simple but the songs are way captivating.

2. Chicago
Again, another musical that has a hollywood adaptation. didnt actually watch the musical until only after the movie version. also watched it in london's west end. stellar performances (although not necessarily from brooke shield's roxie hart) and fabulous dancing fromt he stars and ensemble. witty dialogue and a wierd stage setting. the band is right smack in the centre of the stage. good usage of props and overall choreography. definitely worth your money.

3. Rent
hehe okok so i just came back from the show so i may be a bit biased. i absolutely loved the show! although it had quite a sluggish start but it started to pick up the pace in the middle of the first act. i loved maureen and the cow-jumping-over-the-moon thing. hilarious. tom's heart wrenching rendition of I'll cover you..... mimi and rogers' light my candle (i love love love this song).... the all star la vie boheme and of course, seasons of love! i love love loved it. and more importantly, it touches on issues which are, erm well, close to heart. cant wait for the movie version coming to our shores in 2006!

4. Blood brothers
ok i don't think a lot of people would have heard of this. once again, rich little me watched this in london's phoenix theatre. actually this is a major sad story. twins that are brought up in 2 different families. one rich one poor. both meet at a young age at the playground but doesnt know about each other yet. both fall in love with the same girl. all become good friends. girl marries the poor dude. but sees the rich one occassionally, purely as friends. poor dude gets jealous and kills his own brother. and in turn gets killed by the police.

"So, did y'hear the story of the Johnstone twins?
As like each other as two new pins
Of one womb born, on the self same day
How one was kept and one given away?
An' did you never hear how the Johnstone's died
Never knowing they shared one name
Till the day they died."

i still get shivers down my spine whenever i hear this. not a bad choice if you are tight on budget.

5. Les Miserables
lots of pple love this, but i beg to differ. highly overrated musical..... about the french revolution (like i give a shit)...... so so music. erm. i cant even remember the story. probably because i was late for the show and dun really know much about the history and stuff. so i didnt appreciate it that much.... yeah. so i guess i wouldnt be watching again anytime soon in the theatre unless someone don't mind paying to change my mind. hehe.

I just finished my first paper and all i can say is (and i quote my friend robson): ignorance is bliss. i thought i did quite alright when i came out of the exam hall...... UNTIL i started comparing answers with my friends. i could have been happy now, THINKING that i did correctly. but noooooooo. i just had to open my big gab and ask for answers. and all of them were silly mistakes. i know everyone says they make silly mistakes, when actually they are just plain stupid .but these REALLY are the worst possible ways to lose marks.

sigh.... when will i ever learn and not disappoint myself? i am so sick of that. i need an A. please gimme an A

it never ceases to amaze me that:

1. how a trip to carrefour, with the right company, can be so entertaining. my best guy friend and i decided catch harry potter last nite. albeit having tons of revision not done. we had some spare time left before the show actually started a 1030pm. so we went to carrefour to check out... stuff. we went crazy inside, trying to pronounce crazy french shampoo products, smelling the new original source, which incidentally reminds me of bandung. we went round smelling all the smeely cheese, tasting stuff. haha. good times man. good times.

2. how soundly i can sleep at homw. just woke up from a nap that was supposed to last1hr. i slept for 2hours. i dunno if its because my bed is of a certain hardness, my pillow of a correct height, but i practically sunk in my bed. i tried to wake up, i really did. but i just could not move my arms amd legs. they were sort of like stuck to the bed. it feels great to sleep on my bed!

3. how free i am to blog when i have 4 consecutive exams next week. and i am doing this. karma baby..... its all about karma. i just how it doesnt bite me in the ass when i get my results.

Oh man what an evenful week.... we had our very own flop open floor. which was on monday (catch panda!) hehe. okok, so it wasnt the best openfloor. but at least most of my floormates were involved in the helping out, which is always nice. good job keelong! for getting everyone to chip in. hope the stuff werent too expensive. certainly a mark up from last year's.


hmm wat else. ..its my 22nd birthday! whats ironic though is how unevenful it was. i spent the entire day mugging at engine, which, surprisingly, was a very good place to mug. a few of my friends and i practically "chop" one room to yourselves. and if anyone were to come in, we would all shoot them with dart like eyes. hehe. and they ordered pizza to celebrate my birthday. how nice! and i only knew most of them for less than a sem. so thanks carrot and ah teng!!

what irks me the most was that one of my supposed closer friend didnt come wish me happy birthday. okok. this sounds very secondary school, but i mean, it really bothered me, if not disappointed. i mean, we had this sort of "argument" which was like 10000years ago. and our relationship took a toll since. i mean i can say it wasnt my fault. i'm not saying this because im some ego bastard. but i really really thought it wasnt. and i cant even remember what exactly happened. but it did, and i am not going to bawl over it. just disappointed.

skee and siwei came over to celebrate my birthday yesterday.... the say i had diahorrea. haha too much pizza. i love the 2 of them to pieces. they actually delivered lunch over so we could all eat together (mostly because i MADE them) but still. thanks a lot guys.

oh and i had lab assignment. which took me a grand total of more than 12 hours in a matter of 3 days. which i thought wasnt really worth it. so i handed in a partially done one and heck it. to hell with gis. seriously. not worth my time.

GOOD NEWS! i got my sep to INSA Lyon in france. omg. i cant believe i got it. considering the fact that i so suck at french. je parle un petit peu le francais. hahah right. now all i got to do is not screw up any of my modules now. and i will be on my way to lyon right about..... one year and 3 months from now. yee haaa!

so all in all...... lots of unevenful events made this an evenful week. a week which i cant say is the best week of my life since i spent my entire day mugging.... and doing lab. but a week which i am going to remember. cheerios everyone

i must have been away from home for too long. my neighbourhood has officially become pest zone groud zero. it's literally infested with pests. just now, when i went out for dinner, i was appalled to see rats at my void deck. it's so gross..... it's like they were having a little party of their own, scampering around, oblivious of my presence. i mean i know they exist in the hellhole that they live in but i didn't expect to see 5 of them, in 30 secs.

not only that, my kitchen is filled with cockroaches. don't get me worng. i am 100% confident of the hygiene conditions of my house. i am safely say (with 99% confidence level) that my house is cleaner than the average household. my parents are clean freaks to say the least. but i have no idea where these cockroaches come from. i saw 2 hiding behind the laundry basket. i killed them both with bygon (great invention by the way). i went to watch some tv after. less than an hour later.... i spotted 2 more. 2 MORE! this is unacceptable. what is the world coming to..... we are being overrun by cockroaches!! and to think that they are my worst fears. i seriously do not like cockroaches. they are the ugliest creatures on earth (even uglier than me and that, i consider, to be relatively unbeatable).

I feel a need to complain at how inefficient and incompetent civil engine is. Apparently, they THOUGHT that no one was taking french in the department, so they did not have any spaces for france for sep. what kind of bullshit is that? if there is anyone who should know better, it has got to be them right? that's what the whole screwed up system of cors is all about isn't it? just scroll through accounts and check. how difficult can THAT be? it's defintely not rocket science. and there's only 130 to check. not the entire london's.

i mean, we don't throw 5700bucks at them every year so they can THINK this or THINK that. they are supposed to do some tangible WORK...... not hallucinate it in their pea sized brain. now, i got to request for an opening to france. absolute bs. i am so sick and tired of this. one sep need to do so many things.

i finally know how to upload my pictures! i know.... i am so not computer savvy i might as well be a neanderthal. the computer is my nemesis. i hated it since young. i can never fathom how it works.... i can never differentiate my ram from my hard disk space, reboot from reformat..... much less zipping or unzipping. it's freakin alien language. it's a miracle how people can devote their entire lives trying to work WITH computers. they are maniacs. it's unhealthy.... to have a working relationship with a lifeless object.

i remember when i was young.... like in sec 2. when internet was the new in thing and there wasn't a thing called usb port yet. i had the worst hours of my life, trying to install an external modem to my then perfectly ok,now defunct pentium 1 computer. i had no idea what the shit the manual was talking about..... i ended up crying. yes. i freakin cried over a modem. it's so fucking embarrassing i feel like laughing out now. but i would not. becoause my neighbours will think i am mad. which i am.... but that's another story for another day.

speaking of technology. gis lab completely sucks. it's a complete waste of my precious time. i just spent more than 2 hours in the lab acheiving nothing. i am still stuck at the same place i started. it's crazy! there is no point having such sophisticated software to plot a map when the user (ie me) does not even know how to use it....

sigh. time to go. time to watch project runway. on my laptop. ahhhh the wonders of technology. and by the way, that's me you are seeing.

whoever said retail therapy doesn't work obviously haven't tried it or is too ashamed to admit it. i have been having a real shitty week (no thanks to the lecturers) and decided to buy myself an album. i can't actually remember when i last bought one..... probably last sem....so in the end after much procrastination, i bought Catching Tales by Jamie Cullum! and i like!! and i'm not just saying it because i spent 21 bucks on it..... i am absolutely in love with his voice!

it irks me how NOISY sheares hall can be..... sheares block b to be more precise. a bunch of monkeys i say! it's like they are having a party over there every single night.... and they scream and shout at 2am every single night. it's like a bloody ritual. a ritual they have to make all kr blockers insane. which is totally barbaric. the other evening, an alarm clock rang for almost half an hour before someone with actual working eardrums bothered to off it. shearites are barbarians..... the only redeeming factor is that they have good fried rice. but then again, fried rice= supper= unwanted calories and fats= me fat. which isn't really that good a redeeming factor if you ask me. dammit. arghhhh

my first post!

i strongly believe everyone is this world has exhibitionist tendencies. its just a matter or varying degrees..... which is why i have created myself a second blog for no apparent reason.... on a bored saturday nite.....waaaaitaminute. sunday morning. don't ask me what happened to my previous blog. i just woke up one day and decided not to continue with that ugly blog of mine anymore. that was nearly half a year ago. and half a year later today, my attention-seeking side has got the better of me. i am ashamed but then again.... i don't give a flying f.

isn't it wierd that people choose to indulge in the most unnecessary things, when in fact they have more important things to do. like me for example. i have 2 tests on monday, but i chose to create a stupid blog. that is absolutely ridiculous.

this week has been one hell of a week for me. i had 4 tests. within 3 days. i truly TRULY believe nus lecturers are bloodsuckers. and forecast for the following weeks: bad

on a totally unrelated note, i am totally hungry now. i think i have tapeworms. and they are growing at an alarming rate. i used to be able to eat and be skinny. now, i have a bulge. i actually have a hideous looking tummy. you know how magazines glamourise pregnant women, exposing their stomach in full glory(think demi moore circa 1990)? that look should not be attempted by any man. all males should have washboard abs. i repeat. All. which is why i have ran a grand total of 3 times and utilised my weights once this semester. Boo ya!! i am tarzan hear me roar.

all righty ditey. got to go now. ciao babes!