Argh good riddance 2007

remember i said 2007 was a really bad year with super suay luck? its new years eve and i have been having diarrhea (over 10 times) since 4am in the morning. I vomited once and vomited water twice. I went to see doctor but the medicine doesnt seem to be working..... and i am upset to say that i will be staying at home on freaking New Years Eve, severely dehydrated and tired, but i cant seem to go to sleep.....

In review

2007. One year. 12 months. 52 weeks. 365 days. 525600 mins.

I sort of hate 2007. Despite it being one of the more eventful year of my life. i got to go to france... and met a bunch of wonderful people. I got to live by myself (if you take the snoring roomate out of the equation), and realised i am more independant than i really am. I manage to get myself out of the shit i encountered overseas.... and then shit that happened when i came back home.

But it's been a tiring year, with bad luck bombarding me one after another. and i feel listless and restless and lethargic most of the time. Nothing i have done is REALLY rewarding and i'm not exactly proud of anything and it feels like i have wasted a year... or maybe i'm not giving myself enuff credit. Argh i dunno.

I've never felt lonelier and in retrospect, i've only got myself to blame. Somehow i have this inate talent of shutting myself from the rest of the world and still feel ok. With my super winsome personality and top it off with a face thats perpetually black. Argh. Its not my fault that i have nothing to smile about. Whats there to happy about??? Zilch. Rien. Nada.

And what's there to look forward to in 2008? Work. NICE. absolutely looking forward to THAT.

I need a booster. i need to FIND my booster. I need to stop sitting on my ass. I need to start writing my interim report for my FYP which is NOT GOING ANYWHERE. I need to send out more resumes because no one seems to be interested in a "expected 2nd lower honours" loser. I need to dance. I need to work out. I need to smile more. I need to... stop whining.

Merry Christmas. And have a happy fucking new year to all.

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i am SWARMED with so many things i cant breathe.... oh did i mention its the holidays?

My interview went horribly, as expected. Couldnt think fast enuff even thou they asked easy questions.... it's like my mouth just blurted out random words, hoping they wud make a sentence by itself..... and i'm almost certain i sounded like a retard. I just wanted to dig a hole and hide my face in it there and then. SO SO BAD. Hopefully its just the first interview thats so awful.....

Did a written test for some department for Mindef. Quite fun. Thou i'm quite sure i am not supposed to post anything about it online.... so i wun talk about it. Just that it's probably not the job for me if i'm required to write Political Science papers every single day... i wud probably DIE.

Dance camp was fun but mega tiring.....my whole body is aching like shit. Somehow i think i cant absorb dance steps as fast as i did last time.... like the MAX i can take in is 8 8s per day if not its overload....

The whole routine of half yearly meetups are repeating yet again and i cant wait. WOOTS!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

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Dont get nightmares over it thou.... HAHA!!

UPDATE!! (part vingt quartre)

1. Exams are over.... and so is one semester of lackluster performance. And that means one more sem and i'll be SO done with school.

2. Funka meetings so far has been pretty productive.... the song is finally (almost) out... and now comes the tough part. Cant believe i made myself choreo.... even thou i specifically said i didnt want to.... massively looking thru youtube videos so i can come out with something decent to erase past memories of a horrific performance

3. and i got my FIRST JOB INTERVIEW with URA!!!! SCORE!!! hahaha. Its only contract basis thou.... hopefully i wun screw up too badly during the interview and appear like a COMPLETE fool. Frantically looking thru URA's website in hopes of looking more intelligent on Wednesday. Cross your fingers for me at 3.10pm haha.

4. Just received email regarding FYP submission and first presentation.... Have to hand in 5 page summary of what i have done so far on Jan 14. KAN NI NA>..... now is a good time to start panicking...... WHY WHY WHy during the semester i am so free.... den during holidays i am so much busier!!!

5. Still looking for my ideal job, still flipping Straits Times Recruits section like mad.... why arent the hotels having management trainee programs??!! ARGH... thats my dream job

6. Dance camp next week.... cant wait.

2 days in Paris

i havent been to the movies in a bloody long time.... in fact the last movie i saw was License to Wed....which i am too embarrassed even to say it here.... Which was why i was super excited to have come chanced upon 2 Days in Paris, thanks to my trusty 8 days. Directed, written and edited by Julie Delpy of Before Sunrise/Sunset fame, this shizz is Literally laughed out loud funny!!! And i watched it online.... so it's free... HAHAH but do watch it in the cinema (only The Cathay is playing it) cause there arent any subtitles for the French speaking parts of the film (which is about half the time in the movie).....

Aye watching this movie made me think of France again..... I LOVE FRANCE, despite the shitloads of crap i've experienced there, no thanks to the administration and people. It the mere fact that i was immersed in a culture totally different from Singapore that made it so special, and memorable. Anyway, i leave you with the trailer to 2 Days in Paris

Nostalgia

My Saturday nite was spent youtube-ing music videos of boybands of yesteryears. From the usual suspects like BSB and Nsync to the lesser known ones like 5ive, 911 and Code Red. Nostlagia came flooding back to me... with all the funky dance moves and floppy hair (but unfortunately cheesy outfits that consist of tight sleeveless tees and sweat pants). I remembered having to squeeze out a dance choreo for NSYNC's "It's tearing up my Heart" for my VJ's orientation performance in one nite.... which turned out to be GOD AWFUL and the days when carol and skee splattered their files with posters of 911 and Code Red. Oh good god, i'm old.

Good times man.

Death by OD-ing from cake

On my bday itself, we went to my sister's place at Seng Kang for the first time... to pray and stuff. Waited for the fengshui master to come... wait until leg pain cos nowhere to sit. Notice the agony on my face

After which we went to a Western restaurant at Punggol park... right beside the lake. DAMN COOL! i never knew such a place existed VEry good food.... and at damn good prices too! NO GST!!! kio dio KIM!!! haha.

I basically OD'd on cake this past week.... 5 diff cakes.... cheesecake, blackforest cake, peach-jelly cheesecake, brownie cake and banana mousse chocolate cake..... i've never eaten so many cakes in my LIFE.... its like they are oozing out from all the orifices of my body.... now i wanna puke when i smell of cake..... hahaha good time. Now... back to reality and time to hit the books

24.... but none the wiser...

It's been a long time since i've look forward to growing older and partied this hard... probably because i'm so free i got nothing to think about. Dinner, clubbing, surprise after surpise celebrations, and more clubbing.... haha i dun think i even did so much for my 21st..... THANKS to all my friends for the wonderful surprises, appreciate it very much. in the meantime, here are some pictures from last nite!

24, but none the wiser.... and i think i can officially say i am having my one-third life crisis...

Zouk'd

Zouk on the eve of Deepavali..... BAD IDEA. Half the Singapore population thought it was a good idea to go clubbing on the same night, and its as if Zouk was the only place open in the entire country. The line to Velvet snaked all the way to the basement carpark of Copthorne and the line to Zouk and Phuture went all the way to the bloody canal. How crazy is that. I arrived at 945pm and only got in at 11pm. And it freaking cover charge at Velvet was 30 for guys and 20 for girls.... EARN LIKE CRAZY MAN!!! and that doesnt include the copious amounts of alcohol people buy!!

And thats not the worst part... they started playing Ye Lai Xiang, Cha Cham Bo and Veneru Valiba..... the Indians present must have hyperventilated. And the best way to get over the horrendous music ..... alcohol. Tequila, Vodka, Rhum, Whisky, Gin and Beer all mixed into one tummy.... i was officially smashed by 230am. And talking incessantly on MSN after i ger drunk seems to be the latest way i like embarrassing myself. Aye. Who's turning 24 again?!

It's the Spice Girls bitch

They are baaaaack!!! one million YAYs!! haha. Thou the song hasnt grown on me yet, and its a cheesy pop ballad (shouldnt an up tempo song be more appropriate for a comeback?!)... i'm just excited they are back together for now!

Update (part vingt trois)

1. I figured since my ippt window was almost up, i'd better take it before getting charged even thou i didnt actually train for it cept for the the last minute running sessions 3 weeks before. And i still managed to get 100bucks!! haha. i was hoping i cud use all my gu lat to do more pullups, but i guessed i've passed my prime and getting silver was wishful thinking on my part. i only managed 6 1/2 pullups haha. So embarrassing.

Quite amazed with the whole automated setup now.... DAMN COOL!!! u just put the tag on the floor, and do situps whenever you are ready, and the screen in fronts flashes the number of seconds left and a voice calls out the no of situps you have done!! macam like automated telephone operator service. HAHA!!

2. Exams are round the corner but i still have projects, assignments, presentation and FYP to worry about. EEeeks. so much for having only 2 modules this sem.

3. Freakish weather. Super cloudy in the morning, then sun out for 2 hours and just when i was about to go for a swim, the temperature dropped a couple of degrees again. Aye.

4. Been getting a couple of comments that i have a black, sometimes a too-cool-to-care face. Really meh>?? i'm just born that way. i am FRENLY!!! right?! and there's nothing to smile about 24/7 anyway.

5. Met up with Seeyong, Song yao and Edina for dinner the other nite. Good times. Old frens are still better...

6. and supper with Aili, Jp and Yunn. Woots! Who said my social life was non-existant?! hehs

7. Looking forward to dinner next tuesday to celebrate my birthday! yay! Turning 24, but non the wiser. Whatever.

Peace out

Culture Night

Sobz, my 4th and final culture night. I cant believe i've done this 4 times. i dun think anyone else has managed to even my record.... aye. from jazz to year 1, to salsa in year 2, contemp in year 3 and funk in year 4. i guess i'm really previleged eh? And i just realised i dun have any photos of my previous years culture nite.... mainly because my comp crashed a couple of times before i could back them up.... so please if u have any of my photos SEND ME NOW!

2 more dance events and i will officially retire from the KR Dance scene. Funka and DU! WOOTS cant wait....

For the record, i am the one in the orange jacket!

not dead yet

Sorry for the serious lack of updates.... not in the mood to do anything really. been semi busy..... busy with the stupidest things like going swimming, hence the super cao da look. And practising for culture nite..... so unsatisfied with the current state of everything.... but really no energy to change the status quo....

and i realised this blog has serious issues of having too many words and zero photos....

these were taken quite some time back actually, during dance supper..... and i went as a cowboy. haha quite nice right?

yeap thats about it. still waiting for something to happen..... waiting for anything to happen to jolt me out of my state of laziness... some may call it post sep blues. i think it should be called final year blues/i-just-wanna-enjoy-my-final-year-so-i-shall-not-do-anything syndrome cos all my frens seem to be suffering from the same disease

Musings

I was on the the bus on the way to the pool this afternoon and suddenly i overheard a very familiar language being spoken from behind me.... 2 exchange students were speaking french and i was like AWWWWW!!! I MISS FRENCH SO MUCH!!! which is wierd cos i hated it when i was in france, the constant need to have to think before speaking.... but now i wished i had someone to converse french with....

and i was so happy i could understand what they were talking about after like 3 months of not speaking the language. Goes to show i did learn something in france. And that xiaowen had to rub salt with pictures of lyon splashed all over her photos.... oh man, those painted walls of croix rousse.... how i've missed them. AYEEEEEEEE

met up with the girls today. always feel happy meeting up with them... cos they will keep blasting me on my seriously lack of GK (general knowledge) and lack of ambition...AYEEEEE. which i like cos it brings me back to reality and push me to not be so..... nua.

and i was shocked beyond words that one of my frens proposed to his girlfren after 3 days of dating... thats like a recipe for disaster man. crazy!!!

haha oh a lighter note, my just bought a new fujitsu laptop!! so exciting!!! but still not used to windows vista and office 07....

UPDATES (part vingt deux), or lack thereof

i was asked to update my blog more regularly by a certain someone in Germany.... but the thing is, there arent any news to update, besides reporting what i did today...the number of times i went to the loo, what i ate and what time i slept. Wow. Life in Singapore is so DARN exciting.

1. this is pretty muh old news but i did some lifeguard job for my fren whose fren (isnt something ALWAYS about a fren's fren?) was doing some biathalon training at East Coast. We were supposed to be on kayaks.... but apparently the kayak shop closed down and the nearest one was 3 km away at People's Assoc. So what was supposed to be quite a leisure job turned out to be damn fucking shiong. And i was thinking "great, its drizzling...the water must be freezing" but thankfully it was quite warm.

We ended up swimming and threading water 3/4 of the time in the middle of the ocean at the damn buoys. After what seems like eternity (more like 4hours) my fingers and toes ended up wrinkly and super unglam. But it did earn me 60 bucks and re-ignited my passion for swimming and tanning. Which was why i have swam at the SRC pool since then! Woots! the beach boy's back!

2. I finally met my prof with my proposal for my FYP. He thinks its quite good...i think i am in for some major shit. For i have to go do interviews and surveys with real life construction industry people and he seems to give zero hint that he will help me look for some. So basically i have to go source for people myself..... Aye. Sometimes i wished people would like give directions. i cant work on my own.... Just tell me what to do and i will do it.... i hate being out there in the unknown, dunno whats the direction, dunno where i'm heading. But i guess thats how things work as we grow older no?

3. I'm gonna start dancing again.... gonna re-perform the senior's performance item at HDB hub in 2 weeks time and thats gonna earn me another 40bucks (i have become an odd job labourer doing all sorts of chap pa lang jobs now that i am no longer teaching tuition. i wonder if i can dump these in my resume... aye. which looks pretty empty under the "work experience" section)....Culture nite practices should start this week too.... shud be quite exciting.

4. i am still not making connection with freshies..... i take too damn long to warm up to people. i dun wanna sound like a big brother all the time... advicing them what to do. Thats so boring and sounds so self-important. i just praying that i'm not some bore who spends most of the time in his room and stare at his computer. Aye.

5. i have been whining and complaining for far too long. i think i should stop

6. errrrr, i think thats about it. Me aside, no one seems to be updating their blogs regularly anymore....not even those overseas people. WE HAVE OFFICIALLY become BORING. Yikes. Shudders.

worst luck EVER

*latest update
my comp is officially crazy.... it is working again..... why does it have to tease me like this.... make me live in uncertainty and fear..... fear that one morning when i wake up it will show me the blue screen of death again....
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my god i am having the worst computer year EVER..... my comp just crashed again for the 3rd time this sem..... i dunno wat the hell's wrong with it. KAN NI NA!!!! heng i backed up all my work after the horrible incident one week ago.... (wait it hasnt even been one week. that was only5 days back!!!) otherwise i i have to redo my traffic project which i just finished literally minutes ago, i will just break down and CRY!!!! nA BEI!!!! how issit possible that a new hard disk can just crash 2 times in 1 month>??? i dun fucking believe it.

nows a really good time for me to start reading my fyp books since i have 0 entertainment left...

Nostlagia

Random youtube-ing led me to remember those days when i was still a geeky teen trying to be hip and cool with copious amounts of gel lumped into my hair,

being the New Kid on the Block changing classes after the first 3months due to my disatrous higher chinese grades,

to the days when david beckham (yes that was 100years ago) came to my school and created such a fiasco and me chasing him around like some mental stalker.... in fact the whole school turned into IMH for one day with crazy pple running around.....

to the days when western food was the only food i'd eat,

when i would actually WANT to wear my tie cos my uniform actually looks the best out of the entire country and is wearable to orchard road,

and of cos to the days when we memorised mass dances as if they were our religion and always look forward to the next opportunity to dance all 6 (i think) out

and then i saw this....



6 years on, and i finally realised VJC massdance actually looks like shit. WAHAHAHA. retarded.

hopefully 10 years from now, future VJCians wun be dancing to the electronic beats of Savage Garden's I Want You.... That would truly be so last millenium and so so tragic. LOL!!!

of disappointment and motivation

My final initiation was that of utter chaos, zero respect, no coordination and total lack of discipline, both with the seniors and juniors.... which makes me disappointed. Somehow i can't help but feel disappointed with a lot of things lately in hall.....

and i can't find motivation to do anything these days.... i wished there was a place, like a supermarket that sells motivation and you can buy it and everything will be fine. Seems like i work better with deadlines or when i am super stressed.

big fat sigh

UPDATE (part vingt et un)

Woots!

1. Life after Design Project has been quite relaxed..... but i still wake up at 8am everyday. Dunno why. I feel guilty if i wake up too late.... Everyday wake up, on computer, look for information for projects, read readings, go for lunch dates, come back for afternoon naps.... maybe exercise. stare the the computer for longer periods of time. haha. exciting right! Next time no one eat lunch with you, please call me

2. Being freer basically means i can go for more career talks.... which has started since school reopened....and i only knew about their existence last week..... But then again i wouldnt have time to go before. And its quite interesting.... Like i was about 1m away from the ex Minister of Finance for Philippines, who is now the Asia Pac chair for Credit Suisse. When he said "i've joined Credit Suisse for about 2 years now. Before that i was the Minister of Finance in the Philippines", you can almost hear the collective gasp in the audience.

Aiyah but then again, the whole LT was filled with heaps and mounts of people, i doubt they will even consider a mediocre student like me.... and i'm not really interested in bank jobs anyway, even thou they pay you copious amounts of money. I'm just hoping the hospitality thing will work out.....

3. Dance Reflections Hybrid performance this Saturday!!! Super excited! In need of some arty farty elements in my life right now.

4. My blogspot account is in CHINESE!!!! i tried changing it but it always comes out the next day!!! WHY????

5. My space bar is semi spoilt. I dunno why god is torturing my beloved comp. First hard disk crashed..... then cd rom drive almost died.....now he is trying to take away my space bar.... boo hoo. so please excuse me if my messages in msn looksomethinglikethis because my space bar is in a semi-conscious state right now....

Yeap thats basically it for now...... reminder: no lunch dates please call me!!! i very free!!!!