It's the first time....

the accumulation of work, the sudden increase in workload, the i-dunno-where-the-hell-to-get-this-info-from-but-i-need-it-now panic attacks. i literally could not concentrate for about 30mins. my head was in a whirlwind of i'm-so-dead and stab-me-now thoughts. i got so afraid of hearing my phone ring. everyone suddenly wants work from me which i cannot for the love of god, produce. there isnt any to-do-list anymore.... cos everything seems to be priority number 1. for that 30mins, i had a massive headache. i stood up, i walked ard. i didnt know what to do and i was this close to bursting out in tears.

can i just say. fuck work. all i wanna do now is eat my macadamia nut brittle..... and oh yeah. no alcohol tonite.