DAMN SHAG.

Sibei shag... Friday, went on department retreat at Kukup Malaysia. Woke up super early to take bus there.... basically it was just a lot of eating the entire trip. eat until wanna vomit.

Ate breakfast at some zi char stall.... yes zi char in the morning. cannot take it. but the dishes were quite good to be honest....


some photos of my colleagues pigging out.

On the bus, me Cam and Hy were just talking nonstop.... turns out Hy is the same age as me and Cam... except cos shes a girl so she has already worked a couple of years... and she studied in Purdue and MIT for her masters.... SUPER SMART. i feel inadequate already.

Less than 2 hours later we were already eating our seafood lunch. Damn crazy. cos we were still full from breakfast.
Group shot.... now you can see why i always complain about my colleagues being old and boring.... cos they really are. Only the 3 of us are in the 20s. the rest are in their 30s already. Boooooooo.

Sights and sounds of Kukup.... reminds me of Mekong delta/Tonle Sap river.... and then i tot abt the trip again.... for about 3mins. Den i came back to reality

Kukup is really damn boring. nothing to do... we just played silly card games like bluff and heart attack. LOL we were really damn bored. Otherwise we were sleeping. hahaha

Again.... eating bbq dinner. quite nice. the bbq bakkwa was god damn sinful but super delicious. slurps.

This morning, me and Siwei decided to go check out the Southern Ridges... super excited. the sun was finally out after days of gloomy weather. and it just feels good to wake up bright and early!
partner in crime

GORGEOUS views of the southern parts of Singapore. This is a really good place to pat tor if u are attached.... esp at night. can u imagine how romantic it'll be??? le sigh....
Henderson waves! Really truly spectacular....its damn high above the ground... and i have seen pictures of it at nite from another fren. DAMN PRETTY.... no wonder i am a civil engineer. cos i am amazed at structures. seriously i dunno how they built it.

At another leg of the walk.... this time at the canopy walk... it seems like it went on forever.... and as mentioned. gorgeous views from high up above!

And then we reached hortpark... haha or in dismas's words, hot park... cos its damn hot. haha LITERALLY.... the sun was shining at insane temperatures. me and wei were dying of dehydration and intense exposure to sun...

pretty flowers along the way...

After 10km of walk.... (i am not kidding. its mentioned on the Nparks website).... we were almost half dead.... we ended up at NUS where the trail ended and grabbed some lunch at Science.

Went to check out the soccer ibg going on at SRC.... didnt do too well i think... but watever, i hate soccer anyway. was out of there in 10mins. haha.

At nite, went to ah ma house to celebrate mama and future bro-in-law's bday.... BBQ~!!! SUPER HAPPY! and i didnt even have to touch the grill the entire evening cos the papa and the maid were cooking! i am such a filial child!! haha

Sis with my 2 favourite cousins.

ahhh my family and my future inlaws
Kevin and i... i am amazed at the speed he is growing, love him to death!

yeah so after 2 days of nonstop travelling i am now SIBEI SHAG! supposed to go clubbing with khalid and irfan but decided to pass.... cos my legs really cant take it... SORRY DUDES! next time eh!

i foresee a sunday of swimming running and ironing of clothes...woots!

Nostalgia

Met up with Janelle, Shanny, Van and Mala after damn long. Finally managed to find a day without clashes. I miss them 4..... Van almost couldnt make it and i almost died.... but she managed to reach by 7plus. hahaha YAY! Had Sushei Tei for dinner at Vivo and after dinner coffee at Pacific coffee place... Super happy to talk to all of them.

And i am glad they are all going to go places.... Shanny to UK for her masters... Janelle in her final sem in NUS and hopefully going to Aussieland or UK also for her masters..... Mala in her graduating year and Van settling into her job. Really happy for them. No pictures thou.... cos janelle felt ugly and Mala was wearing hall tee shirt. GIRLSSSS my god.

Afterwards, we went back to watch the Takraw finals between B & E blk. The guys did great imo... but couldnt overcome the tricky players of E blk... and finally lost. Dun fret guys cos you all played a wonderful game! Dun be sad!..... Lose the battle, win the war right? :)

Took a sneak peak at the dance auditions... wah the steps were really quite difficult... double or triple pirouettes... shenjingbing even i cannot do la. Hip hop also quite crazy. Wah.... My auditions 4 yrs back were comparatively so much easier hahah.

Was supposed to eat supper with them.... but i guess the presence of their GOD overshadowed mine so they continued playing into the night.... never go eat eventually.... ended up talking cock with Sebas.... then Sebas, QT and Meibao.... then Henry and Yukai. SUPER HAPPY.

And then it was really too late and i GGed at 2plus am. Cannot take it. Waaaaay past my bedtime.

And as usual..... i went back mostly to see u but once again... aiyah u seem so uninterested and bochup. totally unappreciative.... watever la. BUT for now,let me say, without Hope or Agenda, that my wasted heart will Love you...

(partially zombified and GG-fied at work after a late nite's sleep)

of dreams...

I dont get what you are trying to do. you tried talking to me.... den when i finally replied u gave monosyllabic replies and went off after what felt like 2mins.

Den i dreamt of you at nite.... long story short, we were on a pseudo date and u kept smiling at me. I was so happy..... in fact, happy like monkey. And when i woke up, i realised it was only a dream.... dang.

i blame the channel u police show i was watching earlier (damn u van for asking me to watch that show.... now i'm hooked).... i know it makes no sense.... but what else can i do? i need to stop messing with my own head. nothing is ever going to happen. period. full stop.

Why do i feel like...

i need to bitch abt my work. Really eh... nearly the end of 2 months and i am still plaqued with days when i have absolutely nothing to do. Like seriously nothing to do. Some days i would be flooded with work until i cannot breathe... but thats just like 30% of the time. Tsk... i think this is slightly worrying. I dun geddit. why are they paying me to do nothing. tsk... isnt it like wasting money? I just to have a steady stream of work... not very high expectations right. TSK TSK TSK!

And i really hate being treated like a secretary... "CC please help book a room", "CC please print one copy and file", "CC help me summarise what the person said in the email and tell me the main points"..... SERIOUSLY f*$k u 2 man. I didnt spend 4 years in NUS slogging like mad to come here and be your fucking secretary. I may not have the working experience but i am damn f$%king sure i am smarter than the both of you. Really want me to spend nearly 20k of NUS school fees to come here and help u file email la. shenjingbing. GO FILE YOUR OWN F*%KING EMAILS.

yeah the pay is good... but really, right now, it's zero job satisfaction. And i just feel like Lin Chiling in Red Cliff.... A BIG FAT HUA PING

PS: i really hate hot milo

Randomness....

Have i ever told you.... I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HAAGEN DAZS MACADAMIA NUT BRITTLE... like seriously. It's like my ultimately comfort food besides Macs and KFC.

I remember when i was in France... and i was feeling like shit, i just went to Champion and hunt down one tub of MNB and it would be an instant morale lifter, even thou it cost a bomb.... like 5euros... eh wait. thats the same price.

And i was feeling like shit again on Saturday (for god knows what reason) so i went to get a tub. LOVES IT. The savoury taste of butterscotch combined with the cramelised crunchiness of the macademia nut is simply DIVINE.

Anyway, bottom line, there's 1/3 tub left and i cant wait to finish eating it. Totally rocks my socks off. Ben & Jerry's is SO overrated.

In other bits of randomness.... i think i will go blind if i continue looking at a computer monitor for 80% of a day. sometimes my vision will just go blurry... and i have to blink before gaining back my vision. a bit scary. but.... i just.... dun..... have .......the...... will.... to.... turn.... it... off.

Of losing weight

WOoohooo!! i used to weigh 74.9kg when i went for my pre-employment checkup in late June. then i weighed 73.9 last month when Robson was still around..... today i went to check out my weight again and it dropped! to 73.65kg! YAY!! Jian fei cheng gong!!! (Althou Cameron did trick me into thinking that i was actually 77plus by putting one of his legs on the scale when i wasnt looking... and i completely i FREAKED out.)

Aye.... but it has been so long and i only managed to scale down less than 2kg and my freaking ginormous tummy is still there.... BOoooo

Now would be a good time to say

Told you so.... but i guess... we are all busy, doing our own shit. No one to blame... except the pathetic 24hours we have.... I hope all of u are doing fine, and not falling sick... cos now would be a BAD time to fall sick. right? haha

yeah i miss u guys!

1963

It's nice to wake up to happy relaxing songs.... especially on a cold and wet saturday like today.

And this music video reminds me so much of London.... Big Ben, Hyde Park, Picadilly, Covent Garden, Leiceister Sq, Hampstead Heath..... i so wanna go back again, esp with you, i know you are out there....whoever you are.

the return of the prodigal son

YAYYYYY!!! My best guy fren just came back from Germany! (haha i was almost going to type BFF but i swear he will kill me if i did that). WOOHOOO!!! LI SIWEI WELCOME HOME!! no more lonely nites after work! haha.

I treated him to Din Tai Fung at paragon.... i think the pple at DTF wan to make their customer finish their food as fast as possible... cos we ordered one fried rice, one mian, 1 XLB and 1 siewmai thingy and pork chops... and the food just came one after another BAM BAM BAM.... we were so overwhelmed. so we just keep gobbling our food. and i swore we took less than 10mins to polish everything. and after we finished we went like "erm... did we just finish all our food". wham bam thank you mdm. HAHAHA.

And DTF provides customers with this cradle looking thingy to put their bags in and use a brown cloth to cover the cradle. At first me and wei tot the pple beside us were trying to smother their baby... until we realised it was bags inside. FARKING FUNNY

den we went around to walk walk cos we ate too fast and we were too full for desserts. went to muji and looked at all their overpriced generic products.... but the japs have some crazy inventions. cool.... but crazy.

Then we went to TCC to have desserts and we ordered the hugest mud pie i have ever seen.... heng we only ordered one. And he whipped out his french 1 textbook and i started teaching him french in public... cos he missed the first week of school. Seriously some funny shit.... keep laughing at TCC. Damn paiseh. I MISS HIM MAN!! only he can make me laugh like mad in public....

Anyway work has been good so far... my new deputy director just came today. seems like a nice old man.... see how things go. I think i am getting used to working... like i dun really miss school THAT MUCH anymore. i just miss hall.... and even that i am gradually not missing it already. i mean..... MOVING ON.

Bored at work...

Aye.... its a Monday. Yet another 5 days of of routine work.... Or more like no work. I cant believe it. Its been almost 2 months and i am still not busy on a normal day. But watevs. I can blog.

Last Thursday nite was hall bash @ Arena. Besides watching the KR dancers do their thang and supporting Dismas and Peck, it was basically another excuse to drink and gettin-jiggy-wit-it. my 2 fav vices together. NICE. The dancers seriously wow-ed me with both the dances. i am so proud of them cos they seriously improved like by leaps and bounds. I distinctly remembered giving a "WHOA", Neo style, when the first dance ended. It BLEW MY MIND AWAY. I think the dance auditions will be flooded with pple who are DYING to be part of the team.

Livia, fav mortal. Hey babe. haha private joke.
With the alumni dancers...
Yunn, ex-neighbour and fellow B213 maniac-dancer resident
My hall "wife"..... erms ya. Dun ask me why.
Aiyoh....seeing them dance, just makes me want to dance even more.... I have this random thought in my head. Since KR may not be hosting DU next year after last year's panel judging fiasco, a couple of us are thinking it's time KR has its own dance production. And i was thinking of having dance adaptation of The West Side Story.... even thou i have NO IDEA what it's about.... besides the fact that its the gang version of Romeo and Juliet, between the whites and the latino gang... Then we can dress up as gangsters and dance hip hop, den contemp for the romantic parts.... and then fuse in with a little ballroom and jazz... AWESOME right??!

But then i think we would have to rope in alumni dancers as well cos we cant survive with only the current dancers. And then we will also have money issues, props, choreo.... wah a lot of admin to do. But i seriously think we can pull it off man. so exciting! haha. But this is just a random idea... digress.

ANyway, i have been exercising like crazy... or at least by my standards since i am not the most active person on the planet. I ran last tuesday, swam and ran on friday and ran again on sunday. I am even contemplating going to swim after work tmr.... wahhaah. All this working out but the tummy is still there.... hahaha. But my tummy makes me hot. Loves it. ahahha wateverrrrr

Time

There used to be so much time when i was still studying.... If i didnt feel like doing something, i'd just push it to a later date. Swimming.... running... doing tutorials. Time just seems to pass much slower then.

Now, i only have 4 to 5 hours of free time on weekdays and weekends just seem to zoom past like that *snaps* ... like i took off on Friday. I drank and slept at 4am the nite before, woke up at 9am, chiong back home from hall and went straight to swim at 11am. Came back, took a half hour nap. Chiong out to buy clothes at 130pm(Fred perry baby. super excited), chiong to bishan for my long overdue dental appt at 4pm. Reach home, took another half hour nap. Went jogging at 7pm. Went for dinner and came back by 9pm.... And i was totally GG by then.

Seriously... you realise how impt time is only after you've started working. You dun even have time to exercise even if u want to. But of cos, pple who arent working dun realise that. Like for eg.... i made plans to go out with my frens one week before hand.... and then the nite before, i find out the rest cant make it. And i thought to myself "you had one week to tell me you cant make it and u are only telling me the night before??" I'm not blaming nor accusing. I just wished pple would be more considerate in a way.

So i stayed at home... on a saturday. NICE. Volunteering to iron clothes for my mother. Reading all my frens blogs.... read until nothing to read. Watch crap movies online. Totally boring. Thank god i am going clubbing later. Otherwise this would be a totally uneventful weekend....

Random thoughts again

1. After being swarmed with work for 4 days (last thursday till Tuesday) and nearly dying from suffocation under all those sai gangs.... finally free again today.... for now. Phew...

2. I realised if you want to get something done fast and right, the only person you can trust to do it properly is yourself

3. My JC classmate is getting married to my neighbour who happens to be my childhood fren who i play with. I only discovered this when i bumped into them at my void deck. I have NO idea how they met.... such a WIERD, SMALL, TWISTED world. And i havent talked to both of them in years so there was like awkward silence.... watever. happy for them i guess. at least they found someone, right?

4. My mentor told me probably going to Vietnam end Sept. I REALLY dun feel like going. REALLY. i dunno why.

5. i think my office seriously kill trees like nobody's business..... it's damn awful. Print so many things. i think i need to suggest recycling paper.

6. My hp is going crazy. i cant send sms or call out most of the time.... and i have to on and off it to get it working. and then it goes crazy again.... cycle repeats itself

7. i need to buy a bag, cologne..... and maybe a polo tee from fred perry. i dunno. i just feel like spending. because...... I GOT MY 2ND MONTH'S PAY TODAY!

Second guessing

I spent probably one hour writing an email.... den i wrote a condensed version. Just when i was about to send it out last nite, i decided not to. This morning, i sent an sms instead. It doesnt make any sense. The brain tells you to do something but the heart tells you to do something else altogether. F*ck this shit.

Random Thoughts...

1. B213 houses some of the most maniac dancers. First was Yunn, den was me... now is Dismas. Irrelevant and random, but just something i realised. Maybe its the air in the room. haha.

2. The Olympics opening was spectacular, i must say. Hats off to the Chinese for pulling off such a great feat. Fantastic props, fabulous costumes and stunning visual effect. I must say i am really impressed.

3. Poker is fun! You have to lose to learn.... but it's addictive! haha

4. Settling into the job alright i suppose. I cant believe i actually brought home some work to do over the weekend. But barely touched it thou. heh.

5. Another weekend gone.... another 5 more days to endure. Hopefully i get to clear my off on Friday! *crosses finger*

6. Why must the 4 letter word come fuck everything up? Hoping it will just remain status quo. But looking at the state of what's going on, it'll probably end up being a lose-lose-lose-lose-lose-lose situation for everyone.... Go figure.

Presenting...

The KRHOME

Weekend!

Ahh.... The Shield returns to KR once again.... this years rag and flag swept almost all the awards, except 2 less impt ones. Proud of the rag dancers and the raggers.... good job guys.

National day weekend.... poker with the guys.... maybe sentosa on sunday. Ahhh life is good no? haha

Ramblings

Will be on course from Monday till Thursday afternoon.... no internet connection during office hours.... withdrawal symptoms... but strangely theraputic at the same time. And i saw this ultra cool thing.... my colleague's phone can connect to his laptop to give him wireless internet connection. DAMN COOL right! i never knew u could do that.... but then again i'm always the last person to find out abt stuff like this.

The course is fine i suppose.... they feed u like pigs.... tea break, lunch, den tea break again.... and its all BUFFET. and its not the lousy kind.... its the not bad kind. Aiyah.... felt so fat i went to run today!! runner's high. HAHA.

The good thing about having course at dhoby ghaut... i get to wake up and hour late and reach home at 530pm.... isnt that fucking fantastic!!! WOOTS! Now i just need to find pple to entertain me after classes.... speaking of which wu shaorong isnt free this week to watch dark knight... and i am so bloody tempted to watch it after class. ARGH. who's free?!!

and i can only imagine the PILE OF WORK that is waiting for me on thursday afternoon.... shit man. even the thought of having to reply emails is getting a bit worrisome. 20emails a day times 4 days.... thats nearly a 100 man. seriously. and i have to be in school at 7pm to catch the rag preview.... Shit shit shit. i'd better work my ass off once i reach the office if i wanna make it back in time.... tsk SHIT!

Yay... my first paycheck!

Yay!!! i got my first pay!!!!!....... I should be feeling more excited but i'm not. i mean duh. it's about time. but nonetheless.... YAY cos its the first good thing to come out of this horrible week. more money = more spending power = more retail therapy.....so.... YAY!!! :)))))))

erm.... something i did out of boredom

But scarily true... well most of it.
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Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

NO NO NoNO Nooooo

Not this feeling again. i had to literally drag my ass/feet out of that place.... and i even looked back when i was leaving. If not for van who had to work early today, i probably wouldnt have left so early. And then u see your frens busy with getting to know the new pple, u dun wanna go and bother them. And then u ask yourself why are u back in the first place.

I was telling Van how sentimental i get, even as a kid. Before throwing my old shoes away down the rubbish chute, i had to kiss it goodbye... and say sorry. I know, very retarded & very lame. But it seems like i am forsaking them for something newer...

Exactly how long do i need to get over it? Cos this is getting a little borderline sad, pathetic and loserly. Please let it be soon.

and to sidetrack a little. Am i the only human left on this planet to not have watched The Dark Knight? omg.... someone watch it with me pls. cos all the pple i am supposed to watch it with all PANGSEH me.

Why so Angryyy?

For most parts of my life, i have been pretty much an angry person. Sometimes, I get angry with my parents for constantly being passive-aggressively controlling... i get angry at my frens for being slow, late and indecisive.... i get angry with people in general who misunderstand and judge me when they dun even know me. Sometimes, i even get angry for reasons unknown.

And then... somehow... today, i woke up with a new sense of clarity. Why so angry all the time? You only get to live once, and i dun wanna be remembered as the grouch when i die... I guess being happy lies in the art of accepting things you cant change and embracing the little quirks and idiosyncrasies of your life that makes you.... you. i dun really know how to explain it, but i feel a need to change. fast.

So help me. Remind me to take a chill pill, take a deep breath.... and most imptly, remind me to smile a little when my emotions show. After all.... i think my smile fucking rocks. No?? hehe.

aftermath

Resolved. Case Closed. Moving on....

ironies

its funny how the people whom i most want to see now are the exact people who betrayed me.

of keeping secrets...

It was a classic situation of being at the wrong place at the wrong time.... or being at the right place at the right time, depending how u look at it.

You think walking into people talking smack about you behind your back only happens in movies. Oh noooo, so wrong. When you tell something intimate about yourself that you have spent your life trying to safeguard, you are basically throwing yourself out there... and hope fully people will respect you for being you. But in this case, the people whom i entrusted obviously doesnt give a rat's ass about that.

In the wee hours of the morning, when u are all intoxicated and you get yourself into this situation. Your mind races with random thoughts and goes into hypermode, "Are these people even my friends anymore"... "Who else have they told"... and then you dun really know what to think.

Seriously guys, next time i'll just give u a loudhailer. And you can just tell the entire world for me. The only consolation--- you get to know who your real frens are. those who lend you a shoulder to cry on when you feel like others just stabbed you in the back, gouged out your heart and shred it into pieces.

the weekend is HERRRRRE!

by the request of a certain Miss Ong, i have decided to do and update. workload has slowly (but surely) started to increase. my invisibility cloak has lost its power.... i have a new deputy director sitting opposite me.... thank god my laptop is not facing her so i can still do my random surfing....

was told to sit in a super late, last minute meeting yesterday at 530pm. got a little worried i wun be able to make it to meet the rest at cityhall at 7pm.... surprisingly the meeting ended in 30mins so i made it there only slightly late. Had a lot of meetings lately, many of which i dun understand still, but it seems they dun ever get solutions from those meetings... its just working with unknowns, unknowns and more unknowns. And then making assumptions.... cant really go into details.....

YAY its the weekend. i'm shocked at how fast one week passes..... serious. you wake up, go to work, go home.... repeat 5 times, and the weekend is here again!! Finally going to watch movie..... i cant remember when i watched my last movie.... no wait. it was zohan. hahah lame. but tonights going to be RED CLIFF BABY!!!! so exciting. i managed to set up a whole evening of events for 9 pple in less than 24 hours. i think i rocks.... maybe if this current job doesnt work out, i shud become some events planner or something.

ALRIGHTSSSS thats it. THat probably took up 5mins of your time, MIss ong, hope it helps!

Ouch, again

Shit, i think my foot just became worse. I was in so much pain i could hardly walk to the mrt. I nearly fainted when i stepped out of the train at Outram, probably cos i was standing up all the way from Kovan. And as if that isnt bad enuff, i only had a seat at Buona Vista. In the end, i had to rest twice while walking to the office... which is only 200m away. I guess i have to see some die da doctor tonight. GG.

The last time i was in this much pain was during Rag Dance 3 years ago when i smashed one of my heel against the floor (i forgot which one but i have a nagging feeling that it might have been the right, thats why its so weak now) during one of the rehearsals. Somehow i managed to endure the pain all the way after Rag (ahhh endorphins), and then it became so bad after that i had to wrap my heel for nearly a week.

In other less painful news (but no less troubling), i think i may be heading to Vietnam for some business trip.... nothing is concrete yet. dun have any details. But the word "Vietnam" just brought back so many wonderful memories of my trip..... i definitely dun think i will enjoy this trip as much.... mainly because:

1. i wun be with my frens
2. it is a BUSINESS trip after all
3. i dun really know the pple i am going with, as of now
4. but mainly because------->refer back to point 1

Aye. Just when i tot i was over being emo about everything. they just HAD to send me to Vietnam of all places....

dunno to feel sad, or excited or... what. but at the moment, i am not exactly looking forward to it.....
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and i think i should make my blog private... now that i am working. not very nice to let my colleagues know what i am doing.... or thinking. Maybe over the weekend i will change the settings..... if u want to continue patronising this blog, just let me know i guess.

ouch...

I have been walking with a limp since Monday. I think was too hiong playing vball on sunday. spike jump spike jump. Think i didnt land properly somehow.... or maybe cos of my slightly flat-footed feet. Very pain.... actually its very very pain. Probably hit a nerve in my right sole. Pain until just now robson commented that i look like i have piles.... :((((((((

Going Green

I don't understand why my workplace insists on:

1) Blasting the aircondition to arctic freezing temperatures. come on guys 25deg is the way to go. Or maybe even higher.

2) Printing everything one sided. Seriously i think my company kills at least one bukit timah nature reserve in a day. whats wrong with printing on both sides anyway? And why do i need to reprint when its only trival typo mistakes?

3) providing styrofoam cups at every water dispensing machines. (which i am guilty of using. i should start using my own cup/mug)

Monday Blues...

Yet another monday, yet another 5 days of work. geez. it's already my 4th week. the thought scares me a little. but watever.

Sunday was spent playing vball at Sentosa again. i'm led to think that i MAY have finally found a team game that i actually love and look forward to playing... which i think is a miracle. hahaha. Despite the rain that poured initially (and then halfway thru the afternoon), it was yet another enjoyable day out.... until Mabel's bag got stolen while we were playing the last game. Damn upsetting. but then, shit happens. Felt so sorry for her, cos i think she has been experiencing some major shit in her life right now....The night ended with another circle of trust. ahaha. we are running out of things to say to each other that we resort to digging out each other's dirty laundry.

And while running to catch the train at harbourfront, i RAMMED my left little into the railing of the mrt. FREAK. Super pain. Bled a little. but heng ah. althou the wound seems semi-deep, it didnt hurt so much after, just a lil bit sore.

Looking forward to the next sentosa outing.... but i dun think there wud be one for a very long time... cos FWOC's starting next sunday... and then school will reopen and IBG's going to start and everyone in hall will be busy and would want to go home during weekends. Hopefully that wun happen... but i'm not too optimistic abt the situation.

Oh well, we shall see.
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*UPDATE
Sentosa pple told Mabel that they found her bag!! hahah YAY for her. thou her hp and cash were gone, at least her other valuables like IC were still inside! thats 100bucks saved man. WOOTS

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Kup-ed and edited from someone else's blog:

Sometimes, you scroll to a certain name in your phonebook wondering if you should call or message. Sometimes, you find yourself drawn to a certain person's facebook homepage. Sometimes, you go through your MSN contact list, just to see if that someone is online. Sometimes, while doing all of this, the person magically sends you a random MSN message.

And that just made your day.

Awesome weekend!

So after 4 years, i finally graduated!! Commencement was fine i suppose... as boring as i tot it would be... felt so happy and bittersweet at the same time... when they played a video for the graduating class and events of the past year, i caught a glimpse of KR's rag at Padang... and then everything about acad year 08/09 came flooding back and i started to tear again... but this time it was tears of joy.... (haha i should seriously get my tearducts checked out)

Memories of a horrible design project group which i somehow became the de facto leader of.... doing FYP, taking the same module with Robson and Xianhui after one year of taking our own electives, walking back to hall late at nite with Weyling after TP class, then with everything that happened in hall. felt super proud of myself. I HAVE DONE IT!!!! I survived NUS!

Proud Parents
"WOOOOOTS!!!"

Best friend in CE... haha WE DID IT ROBSON!!!
Blue stones... with special guest Edina.
B Blk Final years...
ahahha 3 years more to go guys.... good luck!
:)

8-Gz yo
Tribute to zixiang who wasnt here.... complete with tilted head and lower lip biting.

Coincidentally SWOC was also organised this past weekend... stayed 2 nites in hall and only joined them in Sentosa. haha. As much as i missed my orientation 4 years back, i think i am more or less OVER all orientations.... playing retarded games and cheering like mad pple. Too old for all those crap.

After a good game of vball, and customary KFC afterwards, we finally all went home. Shagged, but extremely happy.

This is how weekends should be spent and that's just what i needed to climb out of the hell hole of depression. I think i am ok again..... WOOTS!

depression

i have never felt so vulnerable and helpless in my life. not even when i was all alone in france. i will suddenly be reduced to tears for no reason.... while bathing. when eating. when staring at the computer screen. while thinking random thoughts.

i dunno whats wrong with me. i think i maybe bi-polar. i dun feel like going home. i dun feel like going to work. so i jampack my weekday nites and weekend nites with meeting with frens to fill up my otherwise empty life.

Probably due to the cumulation of events. my sister moving out. working life. missing hall. feeling alone.

i seriously need to climb out of this hole.

Work: 1 vs Study: 100000

The plus point of working: you get your own namecard. exciting!

The bad point: Waking up to a torrential downpour and realise you cant sleep in and nua in bed... and u have to go walk in the freaking rain to get to the MRT.

honestly.... i rather sleep in. GG

Ramblings III

In the end,

we only regret the chances we didn't take,

the relationships we were afraid to have,

and the decisions we took too long to make.

i never thought i would say this but..

i miss being a student.

i miss being able to sleep late at nite at god forbidden hours.... doing nothing but wasting countless hours on msn/facebook/tabloids/youtubing or suppers at fong seng

i miss being able to stay out past midnight without worrying if i can wake up the next morning for work. I have to get home by 1130pm nowadays and sleep by 1am. if not tmr morning at work sure GG.

i miss being able to take afternoon naps whenever i wish, instead of hiding in the toilet... like its some disgraceful thing to do

i miss the convenience of waking up 30mins before lecture time, dress in berms, t shirt and slippers... now i have to wake up at 7am everyday... bua with everyone on the trains for 1hour, and most of the time, without a seat. and then i got to repeat the process another time when i go home. AND i got to do this for probably 300 days a year for the next 40 years. NICE.

i miss having people around me all the time... and i can go to their rooms and nua and talk shit. Now its just me, my 4 walls and my comp at home. so lonely. no one to talk to. very depressing.

shit man i feel so lost

okok i think i wanna cry already. i should not be seen tearing in my office. big boo boo

No Air

Jordin Sparks Feat Chris Brown - No Air
Uploaded by FresHipHop

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Ohh

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
wish there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect me to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
That´s how I feel whenever you ain't there
that's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
there's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

So how do you expect me to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
That´s how I feel whenever you ain't there
that's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
there's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

in other news...

So, one week over as a working adult. Got to say, aint lovin it at the moment. The good thing thou, i have my own HUGE desk, my own laptop and a thumbdrive within 5 hours. and i (sort of) decorated the panels with photos from hall.

Some guy dressed as a clown came bursting into office the 2nd day of work, promoting the company DnD which will be on the 18th July.... giving out helium filled balloons which GG-ed the next day. Kinda random but hey... at least it broke the monotony of a lazy Wednesday afternoon.

sorry a bit zi lian... but cant help it. i was too bored.
Friday nite met up with Ak, Kep, ZX and Yukai who came back from French Immersion in Lyon, looking a bit skinnier and darker but otherwise pretty much the same.

Headed over to Gotham Penthouse with ZX to meet Han, Tongdee and JP but the taxi queue was too damn long at Hyatt. Seriously la... waited 30mins for it. Wait until i nearly wanted to VOMIT. pacing up and down. But finally we did arrive at clarke quay and found out we were late for the stupid damn party and our tickets were invalid. Headed over to some bars for drinks as i was too sick to club. Someone must be backstabbing me (or thinking fondly of me... thou seriously i think its the former). Keep sneezing and sneezing. Realised it was already freaking 2am.... left for supper and finally got home at 3am.

There ya go. one week of events all in one shot.

In other bits of randomness.... i discovered a birds nest at my neighbour's house's plant and found 2 baby birdeessss. DAMN CUTE RIGHT!!! but u should have seen it one week ago when it was featherless and humongous eyes. very gross. not a pretty sight.... but now they are as cute as furballs!! like SEBAS! haha watevs. and the parents are always on some nearby railing looking out for the babies. so sweet. AYE

Lastly... quarter life crisis is taking its toll on me. Generally unhappy and moody and prone to bouts of silence-ness.

bored bored bored

i have resorted to checking my emails and facebook 100 times a day. SERIOUSLY! my god. shoot me now!

First Day of work

First day at work yesterday. And i can officially say that MORNING TRAFFIC sucks ass. You have to bua so many people on the train... and the worse thing is there is no place to sit.... and i cant imagine going thru this motion for the next 50 years. I am even contemplating taking one station back from Outram to Harbourfront so i can have place to sit when i go home.

The colleagues are nice i supposed. havent really got to know any of them since they all look busy... dun wanna disturb. Had lunch with 2 of them.... and they were still talking work stuff.... SERIOUSLY. lunch also want to talk work la! wth.

I was so bored on my bored day i finish reading my 8days cover to cover from 10am to 3pm. Thank god my laptop came after that... could do some random surfing, even if it meant no youtube (cos they blocked it) and some primitive version of msn that they have installed in the comp. And then when i hear footsteps have to close all msn windows and act busy, even thou i really have nothing to do. AYEEEEE.

Finally met the boss today. Have to sit in a meeting tmr. decorated my board with a couple of pictures. Now still got nothing to do. bumming bumming.....out

Missing the fun and the laughter...

all i can say is.... i want to go back to 3rd june.