Tired from work

Remember how bored i was at work when i first started working.... and i complained about having nothing to do.... these days, i dun even have time to shit... i dun even have time to eat my apple or drink my yakult.

I tot year end, everyone would be happy and things would slow down cos everyone would be in holiday mood.... budden, both my more senior colleagues have gone on to clear leave and arent going to be back until early Jan... and basically I have to cover their duties... and the thing is.... i dunno what they are doing most of the time cos they have no time to teach me.... and these few days, there are some problem at work and my bosses keep asking me things.... things which i have NO IDEA about because no one taught me... i didnt know i have to know these things.... and suddenly i have a million and one things to do and find out. I hate to look like a retard in front of my bosses... cos that is NEVER a good thing

I even had to cover one external meeting which i was informed only 2 hours beforehand... went to the wrong building and ended up having a room full of pple (about 15 pple) waiting for me because i was my company's representative... my heart literally went "oh my god" when i opened the door cos all 15 sets of eyes suddenly turned to look at me... dagger stares and shit. really crapped outta my pants.... and besides this meeting also some other meetings basically alone (brought my new colleague along but basically he is just there to sit in).

I know this is a good time for me to learn the most things in the shortest time, being thrown into the ocean without a life jacket... but it is really tiring... and i feel so damn bloody helpless.... i really never wanted to be an engineer.... i really dun. I dunno la. Hopefully in a couple of days/weeks/months, i would be able to look back and say this is a good learning experience (which it is, i am not doubting)... but it is really god damn taxing to the brain....

Went back to dance camp today... well there was no dancing involved, not for me at least cos i think i was supposed to be the judge but you know... becos of work, i arrived late. Basically i was only there for the food... but i was glad to take my mind off work, even if it's only for a couple of hours.

And den at the end of the day, i came home. Found a letter with a very familiar handwriting on the envelope.... i knew instantaneously who it was... i thot it was a card he'd written when he was in SLovenia 6 months ago and only had reached now... but when i opened it, i found it to be a hand made Xmas card.... AHhhhh the smile to an end of a bad day.....

THANK YOU BFF!!!!! I LOVE THE CARD!!! i will bring to my office and pin it on my noticeboard!!

Aye.... another day of work tmr.... but also another day closer to the next weekend... It will be a good day tmr.... the power of magical thinking